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A PORTRAIT OF THE ARTIST AS A YOUNG MAN
投诉 阅读记录

第10章

Thenhewonderedatthevaguenessofhiswonder,attheremotenessofhisownsoulfromwhathehadhithertoimaginedhersanctuary,atthefrailholdwhichsomanyyearsoforderandobediencehadofhimwhenonceadefiniteandirrevocableactofhisthreatenedtoendforever,intimeandineternity,hisfreedom。Thevoiceofthedirectorurginguponhimtheproudclaimsofthechurchandthemysteryandpowerofthepriestlyofficerepeateditselfidlyinhismemory。Hissoulwasnottheretohearandgreetitandheknewnowthattheexhortationhehadlistenedtohadalreadyfallenintoanidleformaltale。Hewouldneverswingthethuriblebeforethetabernacleaspriest。Hisdestinywastobeelusiveofsocialorreligiousorders。Thewisdomofthepriest"sappealdidnottouchhimtothequick。Hewasdestinedtolearnhisownwisdomapartfromothersortolearnthewisdomofothershimselfwanderingamongthesnaresoftheworld。

Thesnaresoftheworldwereitswaysofsin。Hewouldfall。Hehadnotyetfallenbuthewouldfallsilently,inaninstant。Nottofallwastoohard,toohard;andhefeltthesilentlapseofhissoul,asitwouldbeatsomeinstanttocome,falling,falling,butnotyetfallen,stillunfallen,butabouttofall。

HecrossedthebridgeoverthestreamoftheTolkaandturnedhiseyescoldlyforaninstanttowardsthefadedblueshrineoftheBlessedVirginwhichstoodfowl-wiseonapoleinthemiddleofaham-shapedencampmentofpoorcottages。Then,bendingtotheleft,hefollowedthelanewhichleduptohishouse。Thefaintdourstinkofrottedcabbagescametowardshimfromthekitchengardensontherisinggroundabovetheriver。Hesmiledtothinkthatitwasthisdisorder,themisruleandconfusionofhisfather"shouseandthestagnationofvegetablelife,whichwastowinthedayinhissoul。Thenashortlaughbrokefromhislipsashethoughtofthatsolitaryfarmhandinthekitchengardensbehindtheirhousewhomtheyhadnicknamedthemanwiththehat。Asecondlaugh,takingrisefromthefirstafterapause,brokefromhiminvoluntarilyashethoughtofhowthemanwiththehatworked,consideringinturnthefourpointsoftheskyandthenregretfullyplunginghisspadeintheearth。

Hepushedopenthelatchlessdooroftheporchandpassedthroughthenakedhallwayintothekitchen。Agroupofhisbrothersandsisterswassittingroundthetable。Teawasnearlyoverandonlythelastofthesecondwateredtearemainedinthebottomsofthesmallglassjarsandjampotswhichdidserviceforteacups。Discardedcrustsandlumpsofsugaredbread,turnedbrownbytheteawhichhadbeenpouredoverthem,layscatteredonthetable。Littlewellsoftealayhereandthereontheboard,andaknifewithabrokenivoryhandlewasstuckthroughthepithofaravagedturnover。

Thesadquietgrey-blueglowofthedyingdaycamethroughthewindowandtheopendoor,coveringoverandallayingquietlyasuddeninstinctofremorseinStephen"sheart。Allthathadbeendeniedthemhadbeenfreelygiventohim,theeldest;butthequietglowofeveningshowedhimintheirfacesnosignofrancour。

Hesatnearthematthetableandaskedwherehisfatherandmotherwere。Oneanswered:——

Goneborotoborolookboroatboroaborohouseboro。

Stillanotherremoval!AboynamedFalloninBelvederehadoftenaskedhimwithasillylaughwhytheymovedsooften。Afrownofscorndarkenedquicklyhisforeheadasheheardagainthesillylaughofthequestioner。

Heasked:——

Whyareweonthemoveagainifit"safairquestion?——

Becauseborotheborolandborolordborowillboroputborousborooutboro。

ThevoiceofhisyoungestbrotherfromthefarthersideofthefireplacebegantosingtheairOftintheStillyNight。Onebyonetheotherstookuptheairuntilafullchoirofvoiceswassinging。Theywouldsingsoforhours,melodyaftermelody,gleeafterglee,tillthelastpalelightdieddownonthehorizon,tillthefirstdarknightcloudscameforthandnightfell。

Hewaitedforsomemoments,listening,beforehetootookuptheairwiththem。Hewaslisteningwithpainofspirittotheovertoneofwearinessbehindtheirfrailfreshinnocentvoices。Evenbeforetheysetoutonlife"sjourneytheyseemedwearyalreadyoftheway。

Heheardthechoirofvoicesinthekitchenechoedandmultipliedthroughanendlessreverberationofthechoirsofendlessgenerationsofchildrenandheardinalltheechoesanechoalsooftherecurringnoteofwearinessandpain。Allseemedwearyoflifeevenbeforeenteringuponit。AndherememberedthatNewmanhadheardthisnotealsointhebrokenlinesofVirgil,givingutterance,likethevoiceofNatureherselftothatpainandwearinessyethopeofbetterthingswhichhasbeentheexperienceofherchildrenineverytime。

Hecouldwaitnolonger。

FromthedoorofByron"spublic-housetothegateofClontarfChapel,fromthegateofClontailChapeltothedoorofByron"spublic-houseandthenbackagaintothechapelandthenbackagaintothepublic-househehadpacedslowlyatfirst,plantinghisstepsscrupulouslyinthespacesofthepatchworkofthefootpath,thentimingtheirfalltothefallofverses。AfullhourhadpassedsincehisfatherhadgoneinwithDanCrosby,thetutor,tofindoutforhimsomethingabouttheuniversity。Forafullhourhehadpacedupanddown,waiting:buthecouldwaitnolonger。

HesetoffabruptlyfortheBull,walkingrapidlylesthisfather"sshrillwhistlemightcallhimback;andinafewmomentshehadroundedthecurveatthepolicebarrackandwassafe。

Yes,hismotherwashostiletotheidea,ashehadreadfromherlistlesssilence。Yethermistrustprickedhimmorekeenlythanhisfather"sprideandhethoughtcoldlyhowhehadwatchedthefaithwhichwasfadingdowninhissoulageingandstrengtheninginhereyes。Adimantagonismgatheredforcewithinhimanddarkenedhismindasacloudagainstherdisloyaltyandwhenitpassed,cloud-like,leavinghismindsereneanddutifultowardsheragain,hewasmadeawaredimlyandwithoutregretofafirstnoiselesssunderingoftheirlives。

Theuniversity!Sohehadpassedbeyondthechallengeofthesentrieswhohadstoodasguardiansofhisboyhoodandhadsoughttokeephimamongthemthathemightbesubjecttothemandservetheirends。Prideaftersatisfactionupliftedhimlikelongslowwaves。Theendhehadbeenborntoserveyetdidnotseehadledhimtoescapebyanunseenpathandnowitbeckonedtohimoncemoreandanewadventurewasabouttobeopenedtohim。Itseemedtohimthatheheardnotesoffitfulmusicleapingupwardsatoneanddownwardsadiminishedfourth,upwardsatoneanddownwardsamajorthird,liketriple-branchingflamesleapingfitfully,flameafterflame,outofamidnightwood。Itwasanelfinprelude,endlessandformless;

and,asitgrewwilderandfaster,theflamesleapingoutoftime,heseemedtohearfromundertheboughsandgrasseswildcreaturesracing,theirfeetpatteringlikerainupontheleaves。Theirfeetpassedinpatteringtumultoverhismind,thefeetofharesandrabbits,thefeetofhartsandhindsandantelopes,untilheheardthemnomoreandrememberedonlyaproudcadencefromNewman:——

Whosefeetareasthefeetofhartsandunderneaththeeverlastingarms。

Theprideofthatdimimagebroughtbacktohismindthedignityoftheofficehehadrefused。Allthroughhisboyhoodhehadmuseduponthatwhichhehadsooftenthoughttobehisdestinyandwhenthemomenthadcomeforhimtoobeythecallhehadturnedaside,obeyingawaywardinstinct。

Nowtimelaybetween:theoilsofordinationwouldneveranointhisbody。

Hehadrefused。Why?

HeturnedseawardfromtheroadatDollymountandashepassedontothethinwoodenbridgehefelttheplanksshakingwiththetrampofheavilyshodfeet。AsquadofchristianbrotherswasonitswaybackfromtheBullandhadbeguntopass,twobytwo,acrossthebridge。Soonthewholebridgewastremblingandresounding。Theuncouthfacespassedhimtwobytwo,stainedyelloworredorlividbythesea,and,ashestrovetolookatthemwitheaseandindifference,afaintstainofpersonalshameandcommiserationrosetohisownface。Angrywithhimselfhetriedtohidehisfacefromtheireyesbygazingdownsidewaysintotheshallowswirlingwaterunderthebridgebuthestillsawareflectionthereinoftheirtop-heavysilkhatsandhumbletape-likecollarsandloosely-hangingclericalclothes——

BrotherHickey。

BrotherQuaid。

BrotherMacArdle。

BrotherKeogh——

Theirpietywouldbeliketheirnames,liketheirfaces,liketheirclothes,anditwasidleforhimtotellhimselfthattheirhumbleandcontritehearts,itmightbe,paidafarrichertributeofdevotionthanhishadeverbeen,agifttenfoldmoreacceptablethanhiselaborateadoration。

Itwasidleforhimtomovehimselftobegeneroustowardsthem,totellhimselfthatifheevercametotheirgates,strippedofhispride,beatenandinbeggar"sweeds,thattheywouldbegeneroustowardshim,lovinghimasthemselves。Idleandembittering,finally,toargue,againsthisowndispassionatecertitude,thatthecommandmentoflovebadeusnottoloveourneighbourasourselveswiththesameamountandintensityoflovebuttolovehimasourselveswiththesamekindoflove。

Hedrewforthaphrasefromhistreasureandspokeitsoftlytohimself:——

Adayofdappledseaborneclouds。

Thephraseandthedayandthesceneharmonizedinachord。Words。Wasittheircolours?Heallowedthemtoglowandfade,hueafterhue:sunrisegold,therussetandgreenofappleorchards,azureofwaves,thegrey-fringedfleeceofclouds。No,itwasnottheircolours:itwasthepoiseandbalanceoftheperioditself。Didhethenlovetherhythmicriseandfallofwordsbetterthantheirassociationsoflegendandcolour?Orwasitthat,beingasweakofsightashewasshyofmind,hedrewlesspleasurefromthereflectionoftheglowingsensibleworldthroughtheprismofalanguagemany-colouredandrichlystoriedthanfromthecontemplationofaninnerworldofindividualemotionsmirroredperfectlyinalucidsuppleperiodicprose?

Hepassedfromthetremblingbridgeontofirmlandagain。Atthatinstant,asitseemedtohim,theairwaschilledand,lookingaskancetowardsthewater,hesawaflyingsqualldarkeningandcrispingsuddenlythetide。

Afaintclickathisheart,afaintthrobinhisthroattoldhimoncemoreofhowhisfleshdreadedthecoldinfrahumanodourofthesea;yethedidnotstrikeacrossthedownsonhisleftbutheldstraightonalongthespineofrocksthatpointedagainsttheriver"smouth。

Aveiledsunlightlitupfaintlythegreysheetofwaterwheretheriverwasembayed。Inthedistancealongthecourseoftheslow-flowingLiffeyslendermastsfleckedtheskyand,moredistantstill,thedimfabricofthecitylayproneinhaze。Likeasceneonsomevaguearras,oldasman"sweariness,theimageoftheseventhcityofchristendomwasvisibletohimacrossthetimelessair,nooldernormorewearynorlesspatientofsubjectionthaninthedaysofthethingmote。

Disheartened,heraisedhiseyestowardstheslow-driftingclouds,dappledandseaborne。Theywerevoyagingacrossthedesertsofthesky,ahostofnomadsonthemarch,voyaginghighoverIreland,westwardbound。TheEuropetheyhadcomefromlayouttherebeyondtheIrishSea,Europeofstrangetonguesandvalleyedandwoodbegirtandcitadelledandofentrenchedandmarshalledraces。Heheardaconfusedmusicwithinhimasofmemoriesandnameswhichhewasalmostconsciousofbutcouldnotcaptureevenforaninstant;thenthemusicseemedtorecede,torecede,torecede,andfromeachrecedingtrailofnebulousmusictherefellalwaysonelongdrawncallingnote,piercinglikeastartheduskofsilence。Again!Again!Again!

Avoicefrombeyondtheworldwascalling——

Hello,Stephanos!——

HerecomesTheDedalus!——

Ao!Eh,giveitover,Dwyer,I"mtellingyou,orI"llgiveyouastuffinthekisserforyourselfAo!——

Goodman,Towser!Duckhim!——

Comealong,Dedalus!BousStephanoumenos!BousStephaneforos!——

Duckhim!Guzzlehimnow,Towser!——

Help!Help!Ao!

Herecognizedtheirspeechcollectivelybeforehedistinguishedtheirfaces。Themeresightofthatmedleyofwetnakednesschilledhimtothebone。Theirbodies,corpse-whiteorsuffusedwithapallidgoldenlightorrawlytannedbythesun,gleamedwiththewetofthesea。Theirdiving-stone,poisedonitsrudesupportsandrockingundertheirplunges,andtherough-hewnstonesoftheslopingbreakwateroverwhichtheyscrambledintheirhorseplaygleamedwithcoldwetlustre。Thetowelswithwhichtheysmackedtheirbodieswereheavywithcoldseawater;anddrenchedwithcoldbrinewastheirmattedhair。

Hestoodstillindeferencetotheircallsandparriedtheirbanterwitheasywords。Howcharacterlesstheylooked:Shuleywithouthisdeepunbuttonedcollar,Enniswithouthisscarletbeltwiththesnakyclasp,andConnollywithouthisNorfolkcoatwiththeflaplessside-pockets!Itwasapaintoseethem,andasword-likepaintoseethesignsofadolescencethatmaderepellenttheirpitiablenakedness。Perhapstheyhadtakenrefugeinnumberandnoisefromthesecretdreadintheirsouls。Buthe,apartfromthemandinsilence,rememberedinwhatdreadhestoodofthemysteryofhisownbody——

StephanosDedalos!BousStephanoumenos!BousStephaneforos!

Theirbanterwasnotnewtohimandnowitflatteredhismildproudsovereignty。Now,asneverbefore,hisstrangenameseemedtohimaprophecy。

Sotimelessseemedthegreywarmair,sofluidandimpersonalhisownmood,thatallageswereasonetohim。AmomentbeforetheghostoftheancientkingdomoftheDaneshadlookedforththroughthevestureofthehazewrappedCity。Now,atthenameofthefabulousartificer,heseemedtohearthenoiseofdimwavesandtoseeawingedformflyingabovethewavesandslowlyclimbingtheair。Whatdiditmean?Wasitaquaintdeviceopeningapageofsomemedievalbookofpropheciesandsymbols,ahawk-likemanflyingsunwardabovethesea,aprophecyoftheendhehadbeenborntoserveandhadbeenfollowingthroughthemistsofchildhoodandboyhood,asymboloftheartistforginganewinhisworkshopoutofthesluggishmatteroftheearthanewsoaringimpalpableimperishablebeing?

Hishearttrembled;hisbreathcamefasterandawildspiritpassedoverhislimbsasthoughhewassoaringsunward。Hishearttrembledinanecstasyoffearandhissoulwasinflight。Hissoulwassoaringinanairbeyondtheworldandthebodyheknewwaspurifiedinabreathanddeliveredofincertitudeandmaderadiantandcommingledwiththeelementofthespirit。Anecstasyofflightmaderadianthiseyesandwildhisbreathandtremulousandwildandradianthiswindsweptlimbs——

One!Two!Lookout!——

Oh,Cripes,I"mdrownded!——

One!Two!Threeandaway!——

Thenext!Thenext!——

One!UK!——

Stephaneforos!

Histhroatachedwithadesiretocryaloud,thecryofahawkoreagleonhigh,tocrypiercinglyofhisdeliverancetothewinds。Thiswasthecalloflifetohissoulnotthedullgrossvoiceoftheworldofdutiesanddespair,nottheinhumanvoicethathadcalledhimtothepaleserviceofthealtar。Aninstantofwildflighthaddeliveredhimandthecryoftriumphwhichhislipswithheldclefthisbrain——

Stephaneforos!

Whatweretheynowbutcerementsshakenfromthebodyofdeath-thefearhehadwalkedinnightandday,theincertitudethathadringedhimround,theshamethathadabasedhimwithinandwithout-cerements,thelinensofthegrave?

Hissoulhadarisenfromthegraveofboyhood,spurninghergrave-clothes。

Yes!Yes!Yes!Hewouldcreateproudlyoutofthefreedomandpowerofhissoul,asthegreatartificerwhosenamehebore,alivingthing,newandsoaringandbeautiful,impalpable,imperishable。

Hestartedupnervouslyfromthestone-blockforhecouldnolongerquenchtheflameinhisblood。Hefelthischeeksaflameandhisthroatthrobbingwithsong。Therewasalustofwanderinginhisfeetthatburnedtosetoutfortheendsoftheearth。On!On!hisheartseemedtocry。

Eveningwoulddeepenabovethesea,nightfallupontheplains,dawnglimmerbeforethewandererandshowhimstrangefieldsandhillsandfaces。Where?

HelookednorthwardtowardsHowth。Theseahadfallenbelowtheline0ofseawrackontheshallowsideofthebreakwaterandalreadythetidewasrunningoutfastalongtheforeshore。Alreadyonelongovalbankofsandlaywarmanddryamidthewavelets。Hereandtherewarmislesofsandgleamedabovetheshallowtideandabouttheislesandaroundthelongbankandamidtheshallowcurrentsofthebeachwerelightcladfigures,wadinganddelving。

Incafewmomentshewasbarefoot,hisstockingsfoldedinhispocketsandhiscanvasshoesdanglingbytheirknottedlacesoverhisshouldersand,pickingapointedsalt-eatenstickoutofthejetsamamongtherocks,heclambereddowntheslopeofthebreakwater。

Therewasalongrivuletinthestrandand,ashewadedslowlyupitscourse,hewonderedattheendlessdriftofseaweed。Emeraldandblackandrussetandolive,itmovedbeneaththecurrent,swayingandturning。

Thewateroftherivuletwasdarkwithendlessdriftandmirroredthehigh-driftingclouds。Thecloudsweredriftingabovehimsilentlyandsilentlytheseatanglewasdriftingbelowhimandthegreywarmairwasstillandanewwildlifewassinginginhisveins。

Wherewashisboyhoodnow?Wherewasthesoulthathadhungbackfromherdestiny,tobroodaloneupontheshameofherwoundsandinherhouseofsqualorandsubterfugetoqueenitinfadedcerementsandinwreathsthatwitheredatthetouch?Orwherewashe?

Hewasalone。Hewasunheeded,happyandneartothewildheartoflife。

Hewasaloneandyoungandwilfulandwildhearted,aloneamidawasteofwildairandbrackishwatersandthesea-harvestofshellsandtangleandveiledgreysunlightandgaycladlightcladfiguresofchildrenandgirlsandvoiceschildishandgirlishintheair。

Agirlstoodbeforehiminmidstream,aloneandstill,gazingouttosea。Sheseemedlikeonewhommagichadchangedintothelikenessofastrangeandbeautifulseabird。Herlongslenderbarelegsweredelicateasacrane"sandpuresavewhereanemeraldtrailofseaweedhadfashioneditselfasasignupontheflesh。Herthighs,fullerandsoft-huedasivory,werebaredalmosttothehips,wherethewhitefringesofherdrawerswerelikefeatheringofsoftwhitedown。Herslate-blueskirtswerekiltedboldlyaboutherwaistanddovetailedbehindher。Herbosomwasasabird"s,softandslight,slightandsoftasthebreastofsomedark-plumageddove。Butherlongfairhairwasgirlish:andgirlish,andtouchedwiththewonderofmortalbeauty,herface。

Shewasaloneandstill,gazingouttosea;andwhenshefelthispresenceandtheworshipofhiseyeshereyesturnedtohiminquietsufferanceofhisgaze,withoutshameorwantonness。Long,longshesufferedhisgazeandthenquietlywithdrewhereyesfromhisandbentthemtowardsthestream,gentlystirringthewaterwithherfoothitherandthither。Thefirstfaintnoiseofgentlymovingwaterbrokethesilence,lowandfaintandwhispering,faintasthebellsofsleep;hitherandthither,hitherandthither;andafaintflametrembledonhercheek——

HeavenlyGod!criedStephen"ssoul,inanoutburstofprofanejoy。

Heturnedawayfromhersuddenlyandsetoffacrossthestrand。Hischeekswereaflame;hisbodywasaglow;hislimbsweretrembling。Onandonandonandonhestrode,faroutoverthesands,singingwildlytothesea,cryingtogreettheadventofthelifethathadcriedtohim。

Herimagehadpassedintohissoulforeverandnowordhadbrokentheholysilenceofhisecstasy。Hereyeshadcalledhimandhissoulhadleapedatthecall。Tolive,toerr,tofall,totriumph,torecreatelifeoutoflife!Awildangelhadappearedtohim,theangelofmortalyouthandbeauty,anenvoyfromthefaircourtsoflife,tothrowopenbeforehiminaninstantofecstasythegatesofallthewaysoferrorandglory。

Onandonandonandon!

Hehaltedsuddenlyandheardhisheartinthesilence。Howfarhadhewalked?Whathourwasit?

Therewasnohumanfigurenearhimnoranysoundbornetohimovertheair。Butthetidewasneartheturnandalreadythedaywasonthewane。

Heturnedlandwardandrantowardstheshoreand,runninguptheslopingbeach,recklessofthesharpshingle,foundasandynookamidaringoftuftedsandknollsandlaydowntherethatthepeaceandsilenceoftheeveningmightstilltheriotofhisblood。

Hefeltabovehimthevastindifferentdomeandthecalmprocessesoftheheavenlybodies;andtheearthbeneathhim,theearththathadbornehim,hadtakenhimtoherbreast。

Heclosedhiseyesinthelanguorofsleep。Hiseyelidstrembledasiftheyfeltthevastcyclicmovementoftheearthandherwatchers,trembledasiftheyfeltthestrangelightofsomenewworld。Hissoulwasswooningintosomenewworld,fantastic,dim,uncertainasundersea,traversedbycloudyshapesandbeings。Aworld,aglimmeroraflower?Glimmeringandtrembling,tremblingandunfolding,abreakinglight,anopeningflower,itspreadinendlesssuccessiontoitself,breakinginfullcrimsonandunfoldingandfadingtopalestrose,leafbyleafandwaveoflightbywaveoflight,floodingalltheheavenswithitssoftflushes,everyflushdeeperthantheother。

Eveninghadfallenwhenhewokeandthesandandaridgrassesofhisbedglowednolonger。Heroseslowlyand,recallingtheraptureofhissleep,sighedatitsjoy。

Heclimbedtothecrestofthesandhillandgazedabouthim。Eveninghadfallen。Arimoftheyoungmooncleftthepalewasteofskyline,therimofasilverhoopembeddedingreysand;andthetidewasflowinginfasttothelandwithalowwhisperofherwaves,islandingafewlastfiguresindistantpools。

Chapter5Hedrainedhisthirdcupofwateryteatothedregsandsettochewingthecrustsoffriedbreadthatwerescatterednearhim,staringintothedarkpoolofthejar。Theyellowdrippinghadbeenscoopedoutlikeabogholeandthepoolunderitbroughtbacktohismemorythedarkturf-colouredwaterofthebathinClongowes。Theboxofpawnticketsathiselbowhadjustbeenrifledandhetookupidlyoneafteranotherinhisgreasyfingerstheblueandwhitedockets,scrawledandsandedandcreasedandbearingthenameofthepledgerasDalyorMacEvoy。

1PairBuskins。

1D。Coat。

3ArticlesandWhite。

1Man"sPants。

Thenheputthemasideandgazedthoughtfullyatthelidofthebox,speckledwithlousemarks,andaskedvaguely:——

Howmuchistheclockfastnow?

Hismotherstraightenedthebatteredalarmclockthatwaslyingonitssideinthemiddleofthemantelpieceuntilitsdialshowedaquartertotwelveandthenlaiditoncemoreonitsside——

Anhourandtwenty-fiveminutes,shesaid。Therighttimenowistwentypastten。Thedearknowsyoumighttrytobeintimeforyourlectures——

Fillouttheplaceformetowash,saidStephen——

Katey,fillouttheplaceforStephentowash——

Boody,fillouttheplaceforStephentowash——

Ican"t,I"mgoingforblue。Fillitout,you,Maggy。

Whentheenamelledbasinhadbeenfittedintothewellofthesinkandtheoldwashinggloveflungonthesideofitheallowedhismothertoscrubhisneckandrootintothefoldsofhisearsandintotheintersticesatthewingsofhisnose——

Well,it"sapoorcase,shesaid,whenauniversitystudentissodirtythathismotherhastowashhim——

Butitgivesyoupleasure,saidStephencalmly。

Anear-splittingwhistlewasheardfromupstairsandhismotherthrustadampoverallintohishands,saying:——

Dryyourselfandhurryoutfortheloveofgoodness。

Asecondshrillwhistle,prolongedangrily,broughtoneofthegirlstothefootofthestaircase——

Yes,father?——

Isyourlazybitchofabrothergoneoutyet?——

Yes,father——

Sure?——

Yes,father——

Hm!

Thegirlcameback,makingsignstohimtobequickandgooutquietlybytheback。Stephenlaughedandsaid:——

Hehasacuriousideaofgendersifhethinksabitchismasculine——

Ah,it"sascandalousshameforyou,Stephen,saidhismother,andyou"lllivetoruethedayyousetyourfootinthatplace。Iknowhowithaschangedyou——

Goodmorning,everybody,saidStephen,smilingandkissingthetipsofhisfingersinadieu。

Thelanebehindtheterracewaswaterloggedandashewentdownitslowly,choosinghisstepsamidheapsofwetrubbish,heheardamadnunscreechinginthenuns"

madhousebeyondthewall——

Jesus!OJesus!Jesus!

Heshookthesoundoutofhisearsbyanangrytossofhisheadandhurriedon,stumblingthroughthemoulderingoffal,hisheartalreadybittenbyanacheofloathingandbitterness。Hisfather"swhistle,hismother"smutterings,thescreechofanunseenmaniacweretohimnowsomanyvoicesoffendingandthreateningtohumbletheprideofhisyouth。Hedrovetheirechoesevenoutofhisheartwithanexecration;but,ashewalkeddowntheavenueandfeltthegreymorninglightfallingabouthimthroughthedrippingtreesandsmeltthestrangewildsmellofthewetleavesandbark,hissoulwasloosedofhermiseries。

Therain-ladentreesoftheavenueevokedinhim,asalways,memoriesofthegirlsandwomenintheplaysofGerhartHauptmann;andthememoryoftheirpalesorrowsandthefragrancefallingfromthewetbranchesmingledinamoodofquietjoy。Hismorningwalkacrossthecityhadbegun,andheforeknewthatashepassedthesloblandsofFairviewhewouldthinkofthecloistralsilver-veinedproseofNewman;thatashewalkedalongtheNorthStrandRoad,glancingidlyatthewindowsoftheprovisionshops,hewouldrecallthedarkhumourofGuidoCavalcantiandsmile;thatashewentbyBaird"sstonecuttingworksinTalbotPlacethespiritofIbsenwouldblowthroughhimlikeakeenwind,aspiritofwaywardboyishbeauty;

andthatpassingagrimymarinedealer"sshopbeyondtheLiffeyhewouldrepeatthesongbyBenJonsonwhichbegins:IwasnotwearierwhereIlay。HismindwhenweariedofitssearchfortheessenceofbeautyamidthespectralwordsofAristotleorAquinasturnedoftenforitspleasuretothedaintysongsoftheElizabethans。Hismind,inthevestureofadoubtingmonk,stoodofteninshadowunderthewindowsofthatage,tohearthegraveandmockingmusicofthelutenistsorthefranklaughterofwaist-coateersuntilalaughtoolow,aphrase,tarnishedbytime,ofchamberingandfalsehonourstunghismonkishprideanddrovehimonfromhislurking-place。

ThelorewhichhewasbelievedtopasshisdaysbroodinguponsothatithadrapthimfromthecompanionshipofyouthwasonlyagarnerofslendersentencesfromAristotle"spoeticsandpsychologyandaSynopsisPhilosophiaeScholasticaeadmentemdiviThomae。Histhinkingwasaduskofdoubtandself-mistrust,litupatmomentsbythelightningsofintuition,butlightningsofsoclearasplendourthatinthosemomentstheworldperishedabouthisfeetasifithadbeenfire-consumed;andthereafterhistonguegrewheavyandhemettheeyesofotherswithunansweringeyes,forhefeltthatthespiritofbeautyhadfoldedhimroundlikeamantleandthatinreveryatleasthehadbeenacquaintedwithnobility。Butwhenthisbriefprideofsilenceupheldhimnolongerhewasgladtofindhimselfstillinthemidstofcommonlives,passingonhiswayamidthesqualorandnoiseandslothofthecityfearlesslyandwithalightheart。

Nearthehoardingsonthecanalhemettheconsumptivemanwiththedoll"sfaceandthebrimlesshatcomingtowardshimdowntheslopeofthebridgewithlittlesteps,tightlybuttonedintohischocolateovercoat,andholdinghisfurledumbrellaaspanortwofromhimlikeadiviningrod。Itmustbeeleven,hethought,andpeeredintoadairytoseethetime。Theclockinthedairytoldhimthatitwasfiveminutestofivebut,asheturnedaway,heheardaclocksomewherenearhim,butunseen,beatingelevenstrokesinswiftprecision。HelaughedashehearditforitmadehimthinkofMcCann,andhesawhimasquatfigureinashootingjacketandbreechesandwithafairgoatee,standinginthewindatHopkins"

corner,andheardhimsay:——

Dedalus,you"reanantisocialbeing,wrappedupinyourself。I"mnot。I"mademocratandI`IlworkandactforsociallibertyandequalityamongallclassesandsexesintheUnitedStatesoftheEuropeofthefuture。

Eleven!Thenhewaslateforthatlecturetoo。Whatdayoftheweekwasit?Hestoppedatanewsagent"storeadtheheadlineofaplacard。

Thursday。Tentoeleven,English;eleventotwelve,French;twelvetoone,physics。HefanciedtohimselftheEnglishlectureandfelt,evenatthatdistance,restlessandhelpless。Hesawtheheadsofhisclassmatesmeeklybentastheywroteintheirnotebooksthepointstheywerebiddentonote,nominaldefinitions,essentialdefinitionsandexamplesordatesofbirthordeath,chiefworks,afavourableandanunfavourablecriticismsidebyside。Hisownheadwasunbentforhisthoughtswanderedabroadandwhetherhelookedaroundthelittleclassofstudentsoroutofthewindowacrossthedesolategardensofthegreenanodourassailedhimofcheerlesscellar-dampanddecay。Anotherheadthanhis,rightbeforehiminthefirstbenches,waspoisedsquarelyaboveitsbendingfellowsliketheheadofapriestappealingwithouthumilitytothetabernacleforthehumbleworshippersabouthim。WhywasitthatwhenhethoughtofCranlyhecouldneverraisebeforehismindtheentireimageofhisbodybutonlytheimageoftheheadandface?Evennowagainstthegreycurtainofthemorninghesawitbeforehimlikethephantomofadream,thefaceofaseveredheadordeath-mask,crownedonthebrowsbyitsstiffblackuprighthairasbyanironcrown。Itwasapriest-likeface,priest-likeinitspalor,inthewidewingednose,intheshadowingsbelowtheeyesandalongthejaws,priest-likeinthelipsthatwerelongandbloodlessandfaintlysmiling;

andStephen,rememberingswiftlyhowhehadtoldCranlyofallthetumultsandunrestandlongingsinhissoul,dayafterdayandnightbynight,onlytobeansweredbyhisfriend"slisteningsilence,wouldhavetoldhimselfthatitwasthefaceofaguiltypriestwhoheardconfessionsofthosewhomhehadnotpowertoabsolvebutthathefeltagaininmemorythegazeofitsdarkwomanisheyes。

Throughthisimagehehadaglimpseofastrangedarkcavernofspeculationbutatonceturnedawayfromit,feelingthatitwasnotyetthehourtoenterit。Butthenightshadeofhisfriend"slistlessnessseemedtobediffusingintheairaroundhimatenuousanddeadlyexhalationandbefoundhimselfglancingfromonecasualwordtoanotheronhisrightorleftinstolidwonderthattheyhadbeensosilentlyemptiedofinstantaneoussenseuntileverymeanshoplegendboundhismindlikethewordsofaspellandhissoulshrivelledupsighingwithageashewalkedoninalaneamongheapsofdeadlanguage。Hisownconsciousnessoflanguagewasebbingfromhisbrainandtricklingintotheverywordsthemselveswhichsettobandanddisbandthemselvesinwaywardrhythms:Theivywhinesuponthewall,Andwhinesandtwinesuponthewall,Theyellowivyuponthewall,Ivy,ivyupthewall。Didanyoneeverhearsuchdrivel?LordAlmighty!Whoeverheardofivywhiningonawall?Yellowivy;thatwasallright。Yellowivoryalso。Andwhataboutivoryivy?

Thewordnowshoneinhisbrain,clearerandbrighterthananyivorysawnfromthemottledtusksofelephants。Ivory,ivoire,avorio,ebur。

OneofthefirstexamplesthathehadlearntinLatinhadrun:Indiamittitebur;andherecalledtheshrewdnorthernfaceoftherectorwhohadtaughthimtoconstruetheMetamorphosesofOvidinacourtlyEnglish,madewhimsicalbythementionofporkersandpotsherdsandchinesofbacon。

HehadlearntwhatlittleheknewofthelawsofLatinversefromaraggedbookwrittenbyaPortuguesepriest。Contrahitorator,variantincarminevates。ThecrisesandvictoriesandsecessionsinRomanhistorywerehandedontohiminthetritewordsintantodiscrimineandhehadtriedtopeerintothesociallifeofthecityofcitiesthroughthewordsimplereollamdenariorumwhichtherectorhadrenderedsonorouslyasthefillingofapotwithdenaries。Thepagesofhistime-wornHoraceneverfeltcoldtothetouchevenwhenhisownfingerswerecold;theywerehumanpagesandfiftyyearsbeforetheyhadbeenturnedbythehumanfingersofJohnDuncanInverarityandbyhisbrother,WilliamMalcolmInverarity。Yes,thosewerenoblenamesontheduskyflyleafand,evenforsopooraLatinistashe,theduskyverseswereasfragrantasthoughtheyhadlainallthoseyearsinmyrtleandlavenderandvervain;butyetitwoundedhimtothinkthathewouldneverbebutashyguestatthefeastoftheworld"scultureandthatthemonkishlearning,intermsofwhichhewasstrivingtoforgeoutanestheticphilosophy,washeldnohigherbytheagehelivedinthanthesubtleandcuriousjargonsofheraldryandfalconry。

ThegreyblockofTrinityonhisleft,setheavilyinthecity"signorancelikeadullstonesetinacumbrousring,pulledhisminddownwardandwhilehewasstrivingthiswayandthattofreehisfeetfromthefettersofthereformedconsciencehecameuponthedrollstatueofthenationalpoetofIreland。

Helookedatitwithoutanger;for,thoughslothofthebodyandofthesoulcreptoveritlikeunseenvermin,overtheshufflingfeetandupthefoldsofthecloakandaroundtheservilehead,itseemedhumblyconsciousofitsindignity。ItwasaFirbolgintheborrowedcloakofaMilesian;andhethoughtofhisfriendDavin,thepeasantstudent。Itwasajestingnamebetweenthem,buttheyoungpeasantborewithitlightly:——

Goon,Stevie,Ihaveahardhead,youtellme。Callmewhatyouwill。

ThehomelyversionofhischristiannameonthelipsofhisfriendhadtouchedStephenpleasantlywhenfirstheardforhewasasformalinspeechwithothersastheywerewithhim。Often,ashesatinDavin"sroomsinGranthamStreet,wonderingathisfriend"swell-madebootsthatflankedthewallpairbypairandrepeatingforhisfriend"ssimpleeartheversesandcadencesofotherswhichweretheveilsofhisownlonginganddejection,therudeFirbolgmindofhislistenerhaddrawnhismindtowardsitandflungitbackagain,drawingitbyaquietinbredcourtesyofattentionorbyaquaintturnofoldEnglishspeechorbytheforceofitsdelightinrudebodilyskill-forDavinhadsatatthefeetofMichaelCusack,theGael-repellingswiftlyandsuddenlybyagrossnessofintelligenceorbyabluntnessoffeelingorbyadullstareofterrorintheeyes,theterrorofsoulofastarvingIrishvillageinwhichthecurfewwasstillanightlyfear。

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