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Awakening and To Let
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第11章

We’vemoved,andtheyhaven’t。Sonobodycares。Marriagewithoutadecentchanceofreliefisonlyasortofslave—owning;peopleoughtn’ttoowneachother。Everybodyseesthatnow。IfIrenebrokesuchlaws,whatdoesitmatter?"

"It’snotformetodisagreethere,"saidJolyon;"butthat’sallquitebesidethemark。Thisisamatterofhumanfeeling。"

"Ofcourseitis,"criedJune,"thehumanfeelingofthosetwoyoungthings。"

"Mydear,"saidJolyonwithgentleexasperation;"you’retalkingnonsense。"

"I’mnot。Iftheyprovetobereallyfondofeachother,whyshouldtheybemadeunhappybecauseofthepast?"

"Youhaven’tlivedthatpast。Ihave——throughthefeelingsofmywife;throughmyownnervesandmyimagination,asonlyonewhoisdevotedcan。"

June,too,rose,andbegantowanderrestlessly。

"If,"shesaidsuddenly,"shewerethedaughterofPhilipBosinney,I

couldunderstandyoubetter。Irenelovedhim,sheneverlovedSoames。"

Jolyonutteredadeepsound—thesortofnoiseanItalianpeasantwomanutterstohermule。Hishearthadbegunbeatingfuriously,buthepaidnoattentiontoit,quitecarriedawaybyhisfeelings。

"Thatshowshowlittleyouunderstand。NeitherInorJon,ifIknowhim,wouldmindalove—past。It’sthebrutalityofaunionwithoutlove。ThisgirlisthedaughterofthemanwhoonceownedJon’smotherasanegro—slavewasowned。Youcan’tlaythatghost;don’ttryto,June!It’saskingustoseeJonjoinedtothefleshandbloodofthemanwhopossessedJon’smotheragainstherwill。It’snogoodmincingwords;Iwantitclearonceforall。AndnowI

mustn’ttalkanymore,orIshallhavetositupwiththisallnight。"And,puttinghishandoverhisheart,JolyonturnedhisbackonhisdaughterandstoodlookingattheriverThames。

June,whobynatureneversawahornet’snestuntilshehadputherheadintoit,wasseriouslyalarmed。Shecameandslippedherarmthroughhis。Notconvincedthathewasright,andsheherselfwrong,becausethatwasnotnaturaltoher,shewasyetprofoundlyimpressedbytheobviousfactthatthesubjectwasverybadforhim。Sherubbedhercheekagainsthisshoulder,andsaidnothing。

Aftertakingherelderlycousinacross,Fleurdidnotlandatonce,butpulledinamongthereeds,intothesunshine。Thepeacefulbeautyoftheafternoonseducedforalittleonenotmuchgiventothevagueandpoetic。Inthefieldbeyondthebankwhereherskifflayup,amachinedrawnbyagreyhorsewasturninganearlyfieldofhay。Shewatchedthegrasscascadingoverandbehindthelightwheelswithfascination——itlookedsocoolandfresh。Theclickandswishblendedwiththerustleofthewillowsandthepoplars,andthecooingofawood—pigeon,inatrueriversong。Alongside,inthedeepgreenwater,weeds,likeyellowsnakes,werewrithingandnosingwiththecurrent;piedcattleonthefarthersidestoodintheshadelazilyswishingtheirtails。Itwasanafternoontodream。AndshetookoutJon’sletters——notfloweryeffusions,buthauntedintheirrecitalofthingsseenanddonebyalongingveryagreeabletoher,andallending"YourdevotedJ。"Fleurwasnotsentimental,herdesireswereeverconcreteandconcentrated,butwhatpoetrytherewasinthedaughterofSoamesandAnnettehadcertainlyinthoseweeksofwaitinggatheredroundhermemoriesofJon。Theyallbelongedtograssandblossom,flowersandrunningwater。Sheenjoyedhiminthescentsabsorbedbyhercrinklingnose。ThestarscouldpersuadeherthatshewasstandingbesidehiminthecentreofthemapofSpain;andofanearlymorningthedewycobwebs,thehazysparkleandpromiseofthedaydowninthegarden,wereJonpersonifiedtoher。

Twowhiteswanscamemajesticallyby,whileshewasreadinghisletters,followedbytheirbroodofsixyoungswansinaline,withjustsomuchwaterbetweeneachtailandhead,aflotillaofgreydestroyers。Fleurthrustherlettersback,gotouthersculls,andpulleduptothelanding—stage。Crossingthelawn,shewonderedwhethersheshouldtellherfatherofJune’svisit。Ifhelearnedofitfromthebutler,hemightthinkitoddifshedidnot。Itgaveher,too,anotherchancetostartleoutofhimthereasonofthefeud。Shewent,therefore,uptheroadtomeethim。

SoameshadgonetolookatapatchofgroundonwhichtheLocalAuthoritieswereproposingtoerectaSanatoriumforpeoplewithweaklungs。Faithfultohisnativeindividualism,hetooknopartinlocalaffairs,contenttopaytherateswhichwerealwaysgoingup。

Hecouldnot,however,remainindifferenttothisnewanddangerousscheme。Thesitewasnothalfamilefromhisownhouse。Hewasquiteofopinionthatthecountryshouldstampouttuberculosis;butthiswasnottheplace。Itshouldbedonefartheraway。Hetook,indeed,anattitudecommontoalltrueForsytes,thatdisabilityofanysortinotherpeoplewasnothisaffair,andtheStateshoulddoitsbusinesswithoutprejudicinginanywaythenaturaladvantageswhichhehadacquiredorinherited。Francie,themostfree—spiritedForsyteofhisgeneration(exceptperhapsthatfellowJolyon)hadonceaskedhiminhermaliciousway:"DidyoueverseethenameForsyteinasubscriptionlist,Soames?"Thatwasasitmightbe,butaSanatoriumwoulddepreciatetheneighbourhood,andheshouldcertainlysignthepetitionwhichwasbeinggotupagainstit。

Returningwiththisdecisionfreshwithinhim,hesawFleurcoming。

Shewasshowinghimmoreaffectionoflate,andthequiettimedownherewithherinthissummerweatherhadbeenmakinghimfeelquiteyoung;AnnettewasalwaysrunninguptoTownforonethingoranother,sothathehadFleurtohimselfalmostasmuchashecouldwish。Tobesure,youngMonthadformedahabitofappearingonhismotor—cyclealmosteveryotherday。Thankgoodness,theyoungfellowhadshavedoffhishalf—toothbrushes,andnolongerlookedlikeamountebank!WithagirlfriendofFleur’swhowasstayinginthehouse,andaneighbouringyouthorso,theymadetwocouplesafterdinner,inthehall,tothemusicoftheelectricpianola,whichperformedFox—trotsunassisted,withasurprisedshineonitsexpressivesurface。Annette,even,nowandthenpassedgracefullyupanddowninthearmsofoneorotheroftheyoungmen。AndSoames,comingtothedrawing—roomdoor,wouldlifthisnosealittlesideways,andwatchthem,waitingtocatchasmilefromFleur;thenmovebacktohischairbythedrawing—roomhearth,toperuseTheTimesorsomeothercollector’spricelist。Tohisever—anxiouseyesFleurshowednosignsofrememberingthatcapriceofhers。

Whenshereachedhimonthedustyroad,heslippedhishandwithinherarm。

"Who,doyouthink,hasbeentoseeyou,Dad?Shecouldn’twait!

Guess!"

"Ineverguess,"saidSoamesuneasily。"Who?"

"Yourcousin,JuneForsyte。"

QuiteunconsciouslySoamesgrippedherarm。"Whatdidshewant?"

"Idon’tknow。Butitwasratherbreakingthroughthefeud,wasn’tit?"

"Feud?Whatfeud?"

"Theonethatexistsinyourimagination,dear。"

Soamesdroppedherarm。Wasshemocking,ortryingtodrawhimon?

"Isupposeshewantedmetobuyapicture,"hesaidatlast。

"Idon’tthinkso。Perhapsitwasjustfamilyaffection。"

"She’sonlyafirstcousinonceremoved,"mutteredSoames。

"Andthedaughterofyourenemy。"

"Whatd’youmeanbythat?"

"Ibegyourpardon,dear;Ithoughthewas。"

"Enemy!"repeatedSoames。"It’sancienthistory。Idon’tknowwhereyougetyournotions。"

"FromJuneForsyte。"

Ithadcometoherasaninspirationthatifhethoughtsheknew,orwereontheedgeofknowledge,hewouldtellher。

Soameswasstartled,butshehadunderratedhiscautionandtenacity。

"Ifyouknow,"hesaidcoldly,"whydoyouplagueme?"

Fleursawthatshehadoverreachedherself。

"Idon’twanttoplagueyou,darling。Asyousay,whywanttoknowmore?Whywanttoknowanythingofthat’small’mystery——Jem’enfiche,asProfondsays?"

"Thatchap!"saidSoamesprofoundly。

Thatchap,indeed,playedaconsiderable,ifinvisible,partthissummer——forhehadnotturnedupagain。EversincetheSundaywhenFleurhaddrawnattentiontohimprowlingonthelawn,Soameshadthoughtofhimagooddeal,andalwaysinconnectionwithAnnette,fornoreason,exceptthatshewaslookinghandsomerthanforsometimepast。Hispossessiveinstinct,subtle,lessformal,moreelasticsincetheWar,keptallmisgivingunderground。AsonelooksonsomeAmericanriver,quietandpleasant,knowingthatanalligatorperhapsislyinginthemudwithhissnoutjustraisedandindistinguishablefromasnagofwood——soSoameslookedontheriverofhisownexistence,subconsciousofMonsieurProfond,refusingtoseemorethanthesuspicionofhissnout。Hehadatthisepochinhislifepracticallyallhewanted,andwasasnearlyhappyashisnaturewouldpermit。Hissenseswereatrest;hisaffectionsfoundalltheventtheyneededinhisdaughter;hiscollectionwaswellknown,hismoneywellinvested;hishealthexcellent,saveforatouchoflivernowandagain;hehadnotyetbeguntoworryseriouslyaboutwhatwouldhappenafterdeath,incliningtothinkthatnothingwouldhappen。Heresembledoneofhisowngilt—edgedsecurities,andtoknockthegiltoffbyseeinganythinghecouldavoidseeingwouldbe,hefeltinstinctively,perverseandretrogressive。Thosetwocrumpledrose—leaves,Fleur’scapriceandMonsieurProfond’ssnout,wouldlevelawayifhelayonthemindustriously。

ThateveningChance,whichvisitsthelivesofeventhebest—investedForsytes,putaclueintoFleur’shands。Herfathercamedowntodinnerwithoutahandkerchief,andhadoccasiontoblowhisnose。

"I’llgetyouone,dear,"shehadsaid,andranupstairs。Inthesachetwhereshesoughtforit——anoldsachetofveryfadedsilk——

thereweretwocompartments:oneheld,handkerchiefs;theotherwasbuttoned,andcontainedsomethingflatandhard。BysomechildishimpulseFleurunbuttonedit。Therewasaframeandinitaphotographofherselfasalittlegirl。Shegazedatit,fascinated,asoneisbyone’sownpresentment。Itslippedunderherfidgetingthumb,andshesawthatanotherphotographwasbehind。Shepressedherowndownfurther,andperceivedaface,whichsheseemedtoknow,ofayoungwoman,verygood—looking,inaveryoldstyleofeveningdress。Slippingherownphotographupoveritagain,shetookoutahandkerchiefandwentdown。Onlyonthestairsdidsheidentifythatface。Surely——surelyJon’smother!Theconvictioncameasashock。

Andshestoodstillinaflurryofthought。Why,ofcourse!Jon’sfatherhadmarriedthewomanherfatherhadwantedtomarry,hadcheatedhimoutofher,perhaps。Then,afraidofshowingbyhermannerthatshehadlightedonhissecret,sherefusedtothinkfurther,and,shakingoutthesilkhandkerchief,enteredthedining—

room。

"Ichosethesoftest,Father。"

"H’m!"saidSoames;"Ionlyusethoseafteracold。Nevermind!"

ThateveningpassedforFleurinputtingtwoandtwotogether;

recallingthelookonherfather’sfaceintheconfectioner’sshop——alookstrangeandcoldlyintimate,aqueerlook。Hemusthavelovedthatwomanverymuchtohavekeptherphotographallthistime,inspiteofhavinglosther。Unsparingandmatter—of—fact,herminddartedtohisrelationswithherownmother。Hadheeverreallylovedher?Shethoughtnot。Jonwasthesonofthewomanhehadreallyloved。Surely,then,heoughtnottomindhisdaughterlovinghim;itonlywantedgettingusedto。Andasighofsheerreliefwascaughtinthefoldsofhernightgownslippingoverherhead。

III

MEETINGS

YouthonlyrecognisesAgebyfitsandstarts。Jon,forone,hadneverreallyseenhisfather’sagetillhecamebackfromSpain。ThefaceofthefourthJolyon,wornbywaiting,gavehimquiteashock——

itlookedsowanandold。Hisfather’smaskhadbeenforcedawrybytheemotionofthemeeting,sothattheboysuddenlyrealisedhowmuchhemusthavefelttheirabsence。Hesummonedtohisaidthethought:’Well,Ididn’twanttogo!’ItwasoutofdateforYouthtodefertoAge。ButJonwasbynomeanstypicallymodern。Hisfatherhadalwaysbeen"sojolly"tohim,andtofeelthatonemeanttobeginagainatoncetheconductwhichhisfatherhadsufferedsixweeks’lonelinesstocurewasnotagreeable。

Atthequestion,"Well,oldman,howdidthegreatGoyastrikeyou?"

hisconscienceprickedhimbadly。ThegreatGoyaonlyexistedbecausehehadcreatedafacewhichresembledFleur’s。

Onthenightoftheirreturn,hewenttobedfullofcompunction;butawokefullofanticipation。ItwasonlythefifthofJuly,andnomeetingwasfixedwithFleuruntiltheninth。Hewastohavethreedaysathomebeforegoingbacktofarm。Somehowhemustcontrivetoseeher!

Inthelivesofmenaninexorablerhythm,causedbytheneedfortrousers,noteventhefondestparentscandeny。Onthesecondday,therefore,JonwenttoTown,andhavingsatisfiedhisconsciencebyorderingwhatwasindispensableinConduitStreet,turnedhisfacetowardPiccadilly。StrattonStreet,whereherClubwas,adjoinedDevonshireHouse。ItwouldbethemerestchancethatsheshouldbeatherClub。ButhedawdleddownBondStreetwithabeatingheart,noticingthesuperiorityofallotheryoungmentohimself。Theyworetheirclotheswithsuchanair;theyhadassurance;theywereold。HewassuddenlyoverwhelmedbytheconvictionthatFleurmusthaveforgottenhim。Absorbedinhisownfeelingforheralltheseweeks,hehadmislaidthatpossibility。Thecornersofhismouthdrooped,hishandsfeltclammy。Fleurwiththepickofyouthatthebeckofhersmile—Fleurincomparable!Itwasanevilmoment。Jon,however,hadagreatideathatonemustbeabletofaceanything。

Andhebracedhimselfwiththatdourrefectioninfrontofabric—a—

bracshop。Atthishigh—watermarkofwhatwasoncetheLondonseason,therewasnothingtomarkitoutfromanyotherexceptagreytophatortwo,andthesun。Jonmovedon,andturningthecornerintoPiccadilly,ranintoValDartiemovingtowardtheIseeumClub,towhichhehadjustbeenelected。

"Hallo!youngman!Whereareyouoffto?"

Jongushed。"I’vejustbeentomytailor’s。"

Vallookedhimupanddown。"That’sgood!I’mgoinginheretoordersomecigarettes;thencomeandhavesomelunch。"

Jonthankedhim。HemightgetnewsofherfromVal!

TheconditionofEngland,thatnightmareofitsPressandPublicmen,wasseenindifferentperspectivewithinthetobacconist’swhichtheynowentered。

"Yes,sir;preciselythecigaretteIusedtosupplyyourfatherwith。

Blessme!Mr。MontagueDartiewasacustomerherefrom——letmesee——

theyearMeltonwontheDerby。Oneofmyverybestcustomershewas。"Afaintsmileilluminedthetobacconist’sface。"Many’sthetiphe’sgivenme,tobesure!Isupposehetookacoupleofhundredoftheseeveryweek,yearin,yearout,andneverchangedhiscigarette。Veryaffablegentleman,broughtmealotofcustom。I

wassorryhemetwiththataccident。Onemissesanoldcustomerlikehim。"

Valsmiled。Hisfather’sdeceasehadclosedanaccountwhichhadbeenrunninglonger,probably,thananyother;andinaringofsmokepuffedoutfromthattime—honouredcigaretteheseemedtoseeagainhisfather’sface,dark,good—looking,moustachioed,alittlepuffy,intheonlyhaloithadearned。Hisfatherhadhisfamehere,anyway——amanwhosmokedtwohundredcigarettesaweek,whocouldgivetips,andrunaccountsforever!Tohistobacconistahero!

Eventhatwassomedistinctiontoinherit!

"Ipaycash,"hesaid;"howmuch?"

"Tohisson,sir,andcash——tenandsix。IshallneverforgetMr。

MontagueDartie。I’veknownhimstandtalkin’tomehalfanhour。

Wedon’tgetmanylikehimnow,witheverybodyinsuchahurry。TheWarwasbadformanners,sir——itwasbadformanners。Youwereinit,Isee。"

"No,"saidVal,tappinghisknee,"Igotthisinthewarbefore。

Savedmylife,Iexpect。Doyouwantanycigarettes,Jon?"

Ratherashamed,Jonmurmured,"Idon’tsmoke,youknow,"andsawthetobacconist’slipstwisted,asifuncertainwhethertosay"GoodGod!"or"Now’syourchance,sir!"

"That’sright,"saidVal;"keepoffitwhileyoucan。You’llwantitwhenyoutakeaknock。Thisisreallythesametobacco,then?"

"Identical,sir;alittledearer,that’sall。Wonderfulstayingpower——theBritishEmpire,Ialwayssay。"

"Sendmedownahundredaweektothisaddress,andinvoiceitmonthly。Comeon,Jon。"

JonenteredtheIseeumwithcuriosity。ExcepttolunchnowandthenattheHotch—Potchwithhisfather,hehadneverbeeninaLondonClub。TheIseeum,comfortableandunpretentious,didnotmove,couldnot,solongasGeorgeForsytesatonitsCommittee,wherehisculinaryacumenwasalmostthecontrollingforce。TheClubhadmadeastandagainstthenewlyrich,andithadtakenallGeorgeForsyte’sprestige,andpraiseofhimasa"goodsportsman,"tobringinProsperProfond。

Thetwowerelunchingtogetherwhenthehalf—brothers—in—lawenteredthedining—room,andattractedbyGeorge’sforefinger,satdownattheirtable,Valwithhisshrewdeyesandcharmingsmile,Jonwithsolemnlipsandanattractiveshynessinhisglance。Therewasanairofprivilegearoundthatcornertable,asthoughpastmasterswereeatingthere。Jonwasfascinatedbythehypnoticatmosphere。

Thewaiter,leaninthechaps,pervadedwithsuchfree—masonicaldeference。HeseemedtohangonGeorgeForsyte’slips,towatchthegloatinhiseyewithakindofsympathy,tofollowthemovementsoftheheavyclub—markedsilverfondly。HisliveriedarmandconfidentialvoicealarmedJon,theycamesosecretlyoverhisshoulder。

ExceptforGeorge’s"Yourgrandfathertippedmeonce;hewasadeucedgoodjudgeofacigar!"neitherhenortheotherpastmastertookanynoticeofhim,andhewasgratefulforthis。Thetalkwasallaboutthebreeding,points,andpricesofhorses,andhelistenedtoitvaguelyatfirst,wonderinghowitwaspossibletoretainsomuchknowledgeinahead。Hecouldnottakehiseyesoffthedarkpastmaster——whathesaidwassodeliberateanddiscouraging——suchheavy,queer,smiled—outwords。Jonwasthinkingofbutterflies,whenheheardhimsay:

"IwanttoseeMr。SoamesForsydetakeaninterestin’orses。"

"OldSoames!He’stoodryafile!"

WithallhismightJontriednottogrowred,whilethedarkpastmasterwenton。

"Hisdaughter’sanattractivesmallgirl。Mr。SoamesForsydeisabitold—fashioned。Iwanttoseehimhaveapleasuresomeday。"

GeorgeForsytegrinned。

"Don’tyouworry;he’snotsomiserableashelooks。He’llnevershowhe’senjoyinganything——theymighttryandtakeitfromhim。

OldSoames!Oncebit,twiceshy!"

"Well,Jon,"saidVal,hastily,"ifyou’vefinished,we’llgoandhavecoffee。"

"Whowerethose?"Jonasked,onthestairs。"Ididn’tquite———"

"OldGeorgeForsyteisafirstcousinofyourfather’sandofmyUncleSoames。He’salwaysbeenhere。Theotherchap,Profond,isaqueerfish。Ithinkhe’shangingroundSoames’wife,ifyouaskme!"

Jonlookedathim,startled。"Butthat’sawful,"hesaid:"Imean——

forFleur。"

"Don’tsupposeFleurcaresverymuch;she’sveryup—to—date。"

"Hermother!"

"You’reverygreen,Jon。"

Jongrewred。"Mothers,"hestammeredangrily,"aredifferent。"

"You’reright,"saidValsuddenly;"butthingsaren’twhattheywerewhenIwasyourage。There’sa’To—morrowwedie’feeling。That’swhatoldGeorgemeantaboutmyUncleSoames。Hedoesn’tmeantodieto—morrow。"

Jonsaid,quickly:"What’sthematterbetweenhimandmyfather?"

"Stablesecret,Jon。Takemyadvice,andbottleup。You’lldonogoodbyknowing。Havealiqueur?"

Jonshookhishead。

"Ihatethewaypeoplekeepthingsfromone,"hemuttered,"andthensneeratoneforbeinggreen。"

"Well,youcanaskHolly。Ifshewon’ttellyou,you’llbelieveit’sforyourowngood,Isuppose。"

Jongotup。"Imustgonow;thanksawfullyforthelunch。"

Valsmiledupathimhalf—sorry,andyetamused。Theboylookedsoupset。

"Allright!SeeyouonFriday。"

"Idon’tknow,"murmuredJon。

Andhedidnot。Thisconspiracyofsilencemadehimdesperate。Itwashumiliatingtobetreatedlikeachild!HeretracedhismoodystepstoStrattonStreet。ButhewouldgotoherClubnow,andfindouttheworst!TohisenquirythereplywasthatMissForsytewasnotintheClub。Shemightbeinperhapslater。ShewasofteninonMonday——theycouldnotsay。Jonsaidhewouldcallagain,and,crossingintotheGreenPark,flunghimselfdownunderatree。Thesunwasbright,andabreezeflutteredtheleavesoftheyounglime—

treebeneathwhichhelay;buthisheartached。Suchdarknessseemedgatheredroundhishappiness。HeheardBigBenchime"Three"abovethetraffic。Thesoundmovedsomethinginhim,and,takingoutapieceofpaper,hebegantoscribbleonitwithapencil。Hehadjottedastanza,andwassearchingthegrassforanotherverse,whensomethinghardtouchedhisshoulder—agreenparasol。ThereabovehimstoodFleur!

"Theytoldmeyou’dbeen,andwerecomingback。SoIthoughtyoumightbeouthere;andyouare——it’sratherwonderful!"

"Oh,Fleur!Ithoughtyou’dhaveforgottenme。"

"WhenItoldyouthatIshouldn’t!"

Jonseizedherarm。

"It’stoomuchluck!Let’sgetawayfromthisside。"HealmostdraggedheronthroughthattoothoughtfullyregulatedPark,tofindsomecoverwheretheycouldsitandholdeachother’shands。

"Hasn’tanybodycutin?"hesaid,gazingroundatherlashes,insuspenseabovehercheeks。

"Thereisayoungidiot,buthedoesn’tcount。"

Jonfeltatwitchofcompassionforthe—youngidiot。

"YouknowI’vehadsunstroke;Ididn’ttellyou。"

"Really!Wasitinteresting?"

"No。Motherwasanangel。Hasanythinghappenedtoyou?"

"Nothing。ExceptthatIthinkI’vefoundoutwhat’swrongbetweenourfamilies,Jon。"

Hisheartbeganbeatingveryfast。

"Ibelievemyfatherwantedtomarryyourmother,andyourfathergotherinstead。"

"Oh!"

"Icameonaphotoofher;itwasinaframebehindaphotoofme。

Ofcourse,ifhewasveryfondofher,thatwouldhavemadehimprettymad,wouldn’tit?"

Jonthoughtforaminute。"Notifshelovedmyfatherbest。"

"Butsupposetheywereengaged?"

"Ifwewereengaged,andyoufoundyoulovedsomebodybetter,Imightgocracked,butIshouldn’tgrudgeityou。"

"Ishould。Youmustn’teverdothatwithme,Jon。

"MyGod!Notmuch!"

"Idon’tbelievethathe’severreallycaredformymother。"

Jonwassilent。Val’swords——thetwopastmastersintheClub!

"Yousee,wedon’tknow,"wentonFleur;"itmayhavebeenagreatshock。Shemayhavebehavedbadlytohim。Peopledo。"

"Mymotherwouldn’t。"

Fleurshruggedhershoulders。"Idon’tthinkweknowmuchaboutourfathersandmothers。Wejustseetheminthelightofthewaytheytreatus;butthey’vetreatedotherpeople,youknow,beforewewereborn—plenty,Iexpect。Yousee,they’rebothold。Lookatyourfather,withthreeseparatefamilies!"

"Isn’tthereanyplace,"criedJon,"inallthisbeastlyLondonwherewecanbealone?"

"Onlyataxi。"

"Let’sgetone,then。"

Whentheywereinstalled,Fleuraskedsuddenly:"AreyougoingbacktoRobinHill?Ishouldliketoseewhereyoulive,Jon。I’mstayingwithmyauntforthenight,butIcouldgetbackintimefordinner。Iwouldn’tcometothehouse,ofcourse。"

Jongazedatherenraptured。

"Splendid!Icanshowityoufromthecopse,weshan’tmeetanybody。

There’satrainatfour。"

ThegodofpropertyandhisForsytesgreatandsmall,leisured,official,commercial,orprofessional,liketheworkingclasses,stillworkedtheirsevenhoursaday,sothatthosetwoofthefourthgenerationtravelleddowntoRobinHillinanemptyfirst—classcarriage,dustyandsun—warmed,ofthattooearlytrain。Theytravelledinblissfulsilence,holdingeachother’shands。

Atthestationtheysawnooneexceptporters,andavillagerortwounknowntoJon,andwalkedoutupthelane,whichsmelledofdustandhoneysuckle。

ForJon——sureofhernow,andwithoutseparationbeforehim——itwasamiraculousdawdle,morewonderfulthanthoseontheDowns,oralongtheriverThames。Itwaslove—in—a—mist——oneofthoseilluminedpagesofLife,whereeverywordandsmile,andeverylighttouchtheygaveeachotherwereaslittlegoldandredandbluebutterfliesandflowersandbirdsscrolledinamongthetext——ahappycommuning,withoutafterthought,whichlastedthirty—sevenminutes。Theyreachedthecoppiceatthemilkinghour。Jonwouldnottakeherasfarasthefarmyard;onlytowhereshecouldseethefieldleadinguptothegardens,andthehousebeyond。Theyturnedinamongthelarches,andsuddenly,atthewindingofthepath,cameonIrene,sittingonanoldlogseat。

Therearevariouskindsofshocks:tothevertebrae;tothenerves;

tomoralsensibility;and,morepotentandpermanent,topersonaldignity。ThislastwastheshockJonreceived,comingthusonhismother。Hebecamesuddenlyconsciousthathewasdoinganindelicatething。TohavebroughtFleurdownopenly——yes!Buttosneakherinlikethis!Consumedwithshame,heputonafrontasbrazenashisnaturewouldpermit。

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