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Awakening and To Let
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第14章

Theremarkwassosingularlyatvariancewithallshehadledhimtoexpectfromher,thatStrumolowskistretchedouthishandandtookacigarette。

"Englandneverwantsanidealist,"hesaid。

ButinJunesomethingprimitivelyEnglishwasthoroughlyupset;oldJolyon’ssenseofjusticehadrisen,asitwere,frombed。"Youcomeandspongeonus,"shesaid,"andthenabuseus。Ifyouthinkthat’splayingthegame,Idon’t。"

Shenowdiscoveredthatwhichothershaddiscoveredbeforeher——thethicknessofhidebeneathwhichthesensibilityofgeniusissometimesveiled。Strumolowski’syoungandingenuousfacebecametheincarnationofasneer。

"Sponge,onedoesnotsponge,onetakeswhatisowing——atenthpartofwhatisowing。Youwillrepenttosaythat,MissForsyte。"

"Oh,no,"saidJune,"Ishan’t。"

"Ah!Weknowverywell,weartists——youtakeustogetwhatyoucanoutofus。Iwantnothingfromyou"——andheblewoutacloudofJune’ssmoke。

Decisionroseinanicypufffromtheturmoilofinsultedshamewithinher。"Verywell,then,youcantakeyourthingsaway。"

And,almostinthesamemoment,shethought:’Poorboy!He’sonlygotagarret,andprobablynotataxifare。Infrontofthesepeople,too;it’spositivelydisgusting!’

YoungStrumolowskishookhisheadviolently;hishair,thick,smooth,closeasagoldenplate,didnotfalloff。

"Icanliveonnothing,"hesaidshrilly;"IhaveoftenhadtoforthesakeofmyArt。Itisyoubourgeoiswhoforceustospendmoney。"

ThewordshitJunelikeapebble,intheribs。AfterallshehaddoneforArt,allheridentificationwithitstroublesandlameducks。Shewasstrugglingforadequatewordswhenthedoorwasopened,andherAustrianmurmured:

"Ayounglady,gnadigesFraulein。"

"Where?"

"Inthelittlemeal—room。"

WithaglanceatBorisStrumolowski,atHannahHobdey,atJimmyPortugal,Junesaidnothing,andwentout,devoidofequanimity。

Enteringthe"littlemeal—room,"sheperceivedtheyoungladytobeFleur——lookingverypretty,ifpale。AtthisdisenchantedmomentalittlelameduckofherownbreedwaswelcometoJune,sohomoeopathicbyinstinct。

Thegirlmusthavecome,ofcourse,becauseofJon;or,ifnot,atleasttogetsomethingoutofher。AndJunefeltjustthenthattoassistsomebodywastheonlybearablething。

"Soyou’verememberedtocome,"shesaid。

"Yes。Whatajollylittleduckofahouse!Butpleasedon’tletmebotheryou,ifyou’vegotpeople。"

"Notatall,"saidJune。"Iwanttoletthemstewintheirownjuiceforabit。HaveyoucomeaboutJon?"

"Yousaidyouthoughtweoughttobetold。Well,I’vefoundout。"

"Oh!"saidJuneblankly。"Notnice,isit?"

TheywerestandingoneoneachsideofthelittlebaretableatwhichJunetookhermeals。AvaseonitwasfullofIcelandpoppies;thegirlraisedherhandandtouchedthemwithaglovedfinger。Tohernew—fangleddress,frillyaboutthehipsandtightbelowtheknees,Junetookasuddenliking——acharmingcolour,flax—blue。

’Shemakesapicture,’thoughtJune。Herlittleroom,withitswhitewashedwalls,itsfloorandhearthofoldpinkbrick,itsblackpaint,andlatticedwindowathwartwhichthelastofthesunlightwasshining,hadneverlookedsocharming,setoffbythisyoungfigure,withthecreamy,slightlyfrowningface。SherememberedwithsuddenvividnesshownicesheherselfhadlookedinthoseolddayswhenherheartwassetonPhilipBosinney,thatdeadlover,whohadbrokenfromhertodestroyforeverIrene’sallegiancetothisgirl’sfather。DidFleurknowofthat,too?

"Well,"shesaid,"whatareyougoingtodo?"

ItwassomesecondsbeforeFleuranswered。

"Idon’twantJontosuffer。Imustseehimoncemoretoputanendtoit。"

"You’regoingtoputanendtoit!"

"Whatelseistheretodo?"

ThegirlseemedtoJune,suddenly,intolerablyspiritless。

"Isupposeyou’reright,"shemuttered。"Iknowmyfatherthinksso;

but——Ishouldneverhavedoneitmyself。Ican’ttakethingslyingdown。"

Howpoisedandwatchfulthatgirllooked;howunemotionalhervoicesounded!

"PeoplewillassumethatI’minlove。"

"Well,aren’tyou?"

Fleurshruggedhershoulders。’Imighthaveknownit,’thoughtJune;

’she’sSoames’daughter——fish!Andyet——he!’

"Whatdoyouwantmetodothen?"shesaidwithasortofdisgust。

"CouldIseeJonhereto—morrowonhiswaydowntoHolly’s?He’dcomeifyousenthimalineto—night。Andperhapsafterwardyou’dletthemknowquietlyatRobinHillthatit’sallover,andthattheyneedn’ttellJonabouthismother。"

"Allright!"saidJuneabruptly。"I’llwritenow,andyoucanpostit。Half—pasttwotomorrow。Ishan’tbein,myself。"

Shesatdownatthetinybureauwhichfilledonecorner。WhenshelookedroundwiththefinishednoteFleurwasstilltouchingthepoppieswithherglovedfinger。

Junelickedastamp。"Well,hereitis。Ifyou’renotinlove,ofcourse,there’snomoretobesaid。Jon’slucky。"

Fleurtookthenote。"Thanksawfully!"

’Cold—bloodedlittlebaggage!’thoughtJune。Jon,sonofherfather,tolove,andnottobelovedbythedaughterof——Soames!Itwashumiliating!

"Isthatall?"

Fleurnodded;herfrillsshookandtrembledassheswayedtowardthedoor。

"Good—bye!"

"Good—bye!……Littlepieceoffashion!"mutteredJune,closingthedoor。"Thatfamily!"Andshemarchedbacktowardherstudio。BorisStrumolowskihadregainedhisChrist—likesilenceandJimmyPortugalwasdamningeverybody,exceptthegroupinwhosebehalfherantheNeo—Artist。AmongthecondemnedwereEricCobbley,andseveralother"lame—duck"geniiwhoatonetimeoranotherhadheldfirstplaceintherepertoireofJune’saidandadoration。Sheexperiencedasenseoffutilityanddisgust,andwenttothewindowtolettheriver—windblowthosesqueakywordsaway。

ButwhenatlengthJimmyPortugalhadfinished,andgonewithHannahHobdey,shesatdownandmotheredyoungStrumolowskiforhalfanhour,promisinghimamonth,atleast,oftheAmericanstream;sothathewentawaywithhishaloinperfectorder。’Inspiteofall,’

Junethought,’Borisiswonderful’

VIII

THEBITBETWEENTHETEETH

Toknowthatyourhandisagainsteveryone’sis——forsomenatures——

toexperienceasenseofmoralrelease。FleurfeltnoremorsewhensheleftJune’shouse。Readingcondemnatoryresentmentinherlittlekinswoman’sblueeyes—shewasgladthatshehadfooledher,despisingJunebecausethatelderlyidealisthadnotseenwhatshewasafter。

Endit,forsooth!Shewouldsoonshowthemallthatshewasonlyjustbeginning。AndshesmiledtoherselfonthetopofthebuswhichcarriedherbacktoMayfair。Butthesmiledied,squeezedoutbyspasmsofanticipationandanxiety。WouldshebeabletomanageJon?Shehadtakenthebitbetweenherteeth,butcouldshemakehimtakeittoo?Sheknewthetruthandtherealdangerofdelay——heknewneither;thereinlayallthedifferenceintheworld。

’SupposeItellhim,’shethought;’wouldn’titreallybesafer?’

Thishideousluckhadnorighttospoiltheirlove;hemustseethat!

Theycouldnotletit!Peoplealwaysacceptedanaccomplishedfactintime!Fromthatpieceofphilosophy——profoundenoughatherage——

shepassedtoanotherconsiderationlessphilosophic。IfshepersuadedJontoaquickandsecretmarriage,andhefoundoutafterwardthatshehadknownthetruth。Whatthen?Jonhatedsubterfuge。Again,then,woulditnotbebettertotellhim?Butthememoryofhismother’sfacekeptintrudingonthatimpulse。

Fleurwasafraid。Hismotherhadpoweroverhim;morepowerperhapsthansheherself。Whocouldtell?Itwastoogreatarisk。Deep—

sunkintheseinstinctivecalculationsshewascarriedonpastGreenStreetasfarastheRitzHotel。Shegotdownthere,andwalkedbackontheGreenParkside。Thestormhadwashedeverytree;theystilldripped。Heavydropsfellontoherfrills,andtoavoidthemshecrossedoverundertheeyesoftheIseeumClub。ChancingtolookupshesawMonsieurProfondwithatallstoutmaninthebaywindow。

TurningintoGreenStreetsheheardhernamecalled,andsaw"thatprowler"comingup。Hetookoffhishat——aglossy"bowler"suchassheparticularlydetested。

"Goodevenin’!MissForsyde。Isn’tthereasmallthingIcandoforyou?"

"Yes,passbyontheotherside。"

"Isay!Whydoyoudislikeme?"

"DoI?"

"Itlookslikeit。"

"Well,then,becauseyoumakemefeellifeisn’tworthliving。"

MonsieurProfondsmiled。

"Lookhere,MissForsyde,don’tworry。It’llbeallright。Nothinglasts。"

"Thingsdolast,"criedFleur;"withmeanyhow——especiallylikesanddislikes。"

"Well,thatmakesmeabitun’appy。"

"Ishouldhavethoughtnothingcouldevermakeyouhappyorunhappy。"

"Idon’tliketoannoyotherpeople。I’mgoin’onmyyacht。"

Fleurlookedathim,startled。

"Where?"

"SmallvoyagetotheSouthSeasorsomewhere,"saidMonsieurProfond。

Fleursufferedreliefandasenseofinsult。Clearlyhemeanttoconveythathewasbreakingwithhermother。Howdaredhehaveanythingtobreak,andyethowdaredhebreakit?

"Good—night,MissForsyde!RemembermetoMrs。Dartie。I’mnotsobadreally。Good—night!"Fleurlefthimstandingtherewithhishatraised。Stealingalookround,shesawhimstroll——immaculateandheavy——backtowardhisClub。

’Hecan’tevenlovewithconviction,’shethought。’WhatwillMotherdo?’

Herdreamsthatnightwereendlessanduneasy;sheroseheavyandunrested,andwentatoncetothestudyofWhitaker’sAlmanac。A

Forsyteisinstinctivelyawarethatfactsaretherealcruxofanysituation。ShemightconquerJon’sprejudice,butwithoutexactmachinerytocompletetheirdesperateresolve,nothingwouldhappen。

>Fromtheinvaluabletomeshelearnedthattheymusteachbetwenty—

one;orsomeone’sconsentwouldbenecessary,whichofcoursewasunobtainable;thenshebecamelostindirectionsconcerninglicenses,certificates,notices,districts,comingfinallytotheword"perjury。"Butthatwasnonsense!Whowouldreallymindtheirgivingwrongagesinordertobemarriedforlove!Sheatehardlyanybreakfast,andwentbacktoWhitaker。Themoreshestudiedthelesssureshebecame;till,idlyturningthepages,shecametoScotland。Peoplecouldbemarriedtherewithoutanyofthisnonsense。Shehadonlytogoandstaytheretwenty—onedays,thenJoncouldcome,andinfrontoftwopeopletheycoulddeclarethemselvesmarried。Andwhatwasmore——theywouldbe!Itwasfarthebestway;andatoncesheranoverherschoolfellows。TherewasMaryLambewholivedinEdinburghandwas"quiteasport!"

Shehadabrothertoo。ShecouldstaywithMaryLambe,whowithherbrotherwouldserveforwitnesses。Shewellknewthatsomegirlswouldthinkallthisunnecessary,andthatallsheandJonneeddowastogoawaytogetherforaweekendandthensaytotheirpeople:

"WearemarriedbyNature,wemustnowbemarriedbyLaw。"ButFleurwasForsyteenoughtofeelsuchaproceedingdubious,andtodreadherfather’sfacewhenheheardofit。Besides,shedidnotbelievethatJonwoulddoit;hehadanopinionofhersuchasshecouldnotbeartodiminish。No!MaryLambewaspreferable,anditwasjustthetimeofyeartogotoScotland。Moreateasenowshepacked,avoidedheraunt,andtookabustoChiswick。Shewastooearly,andwentontoKewGardens。Shefoundnopeaceamongitsflower—beds,labelledtrees,andbroadgreenspaces,andhavinglunchedoffanchovy—pastesandwichesandcoffee,returnedtoChiswickandrangJune’sbell。TheAustrianadmittedhertothe"littlemeal—room。"

NowthatsheknewwhatsheandJonwereupagainst,herlongingforhimhadincreasedtenfold,asifhewereatoywithsharpedgesordangerouspaintsuchastheyhadtriedtotakefromherasachild。

Ifshecouldnothaveherway,andgetJonforgoodandall,shefeltlikedyingofprivation。Byhookorcrookshemustandwouldgethim!Arounddimmirrorofveryoldglasshungoverthepinkbrickhearth。Shestoodlookingatherselfreflectedinit,pale,andratherdarkundertheeyes;littleshudderskeptpassingthroughhernerves。Thensheheardthebellring,and,stealingtothewindow,sawhimstandingonthedoorstepsmoothinghishairandlips,asifhetooweretryingtosubduetheflutteringofhisnerves。

Shewassittingononeofthetworush—seatedchairs,withherbacktothedoor,whenhecamein,andshesaidatonce"Sitdown,Jon,Iwanttotalkseriously。"

Jonsatonthetablebyherside,andwithoutlookingathimshewenton:

"Ifyoudon’twanttoloseme,wemustgetmarried。"

Jongasped。

"Why?Isthereanythingnew?"

"No,butIfeltitatRobinHill,andamongmypeople。"

"But——"stammeredJon,"atRobinHill——itwasallsmooth——andthey’vesaidnothingtome。"

"Buttheymeantostopus。Yourmother’sfacewasenough。Andmyfather’s。"

"Haveyouseenhimsince?"

Fleurnodded。Whatmatteredafewsupplementarylies?

"But,"saidJoneagerly,"Ican’tseehowtheycanfeellikethatafteralltheseyears。"

Fleurlookedupathim。

"Perhapsyoudon’tlovemeenough。"

"Notloveyouenough!Why——!"

"Thenmakesureofme。"

"Withouttellingthem?"

"Nottillafter。"

Jonwassilent。Howmucholderhelookedthanonthatday,barelytwomonthsago,whenshefirstsawhim——quitetwoyearsolder!

"ItwouldhurtMotherawfully,"hesaid。

Fleurdrewherhandaway。

"You’vegottochoose。"

Jonslidoffthetableontohisknees。

"Butwhynottellthem?Theycan’treallystopus,Fleur!"

"Theycan!Itellyou,theycan。"

"How?"

"We’reutterlydependent——byputtingmoneypressure,andallsortsofotherpressure。I’mnotpatient,Jon。"

"Butit’sdeceivingthem。"

Fleurgotup。

"Youcan’treallyloveme,oryouwouldn’thesitate。’Heeitherfearshisfatetoomuch!’"

Liftinghishandstoherwaist,Jonforcedhertositdownagain。

Shehurriedon:

"I’veplanneditallout。We’veonlytogotoScotland。Whenwe’remarriedthey’llsooncomeround。Peoplealwayscomeroundtofacts。

Don’tyousee,Jon?"

"Buttohurtthemsoawfully!"

Sohewouldratherhurtherthanthosepeopleofhis!"Allright,then;letmego!"

Jongotupandputhisbackagainstthedoor。

"Iexpectyou’reright,"hesaidslowly;"butIwanttothinkitover。"

Shecouldseethathewasseethingwithfeelingshewantedtoexpress;butshedidnotmeantohelphim。Shehatedherselfatthismomentandalmosthatedhim。Whyhadshetodoalltheworktosecuretheirlove?Itwasn’tfair。Andthenshesawhiseyes,adoringanddistressed。

"Don’tlooklikethat!Ionlydon’twanttoloseyou,Jon。"

"Youcan’tlosemesolongasyouwantme。"

"Oh,yes,Ican。"

Jonputhishandsonhershoulders。

"Fleur,doyouknowanythingyouhaven’ttoldme?"

Itwasthepoint—blankquestionshehaddreaded。Shelookedstraightathim,andanswered:"No。"Shehadburntherboats;butwhatdiditmatter,ifshegothim?Hewouldforgiveher。Andthrowingherarmsroundhisneck,shekissedhimonthelips。Shewaswinning!Shefeltitinthebeatingofhisheartagainsther,intheclosingofhiseyes。"Iwanttomakesure!Iwanttomakesure!"shewhispered。"Promise!"

Jondidnotanswer。Hisfacehadthestillnessofextremetrouble。

Atlasthesaid:

"It’slikehittingthem。Imustthinkalittle,Fleur。Ireallymust。"

Fleurslippedoutofhisarms。

"Oh!Verywell!"Andsuddenlysheburstintotearsofdisappointment,shame,andoverstrain。Followedfiveminutesofacutemisery。Jon’sremorseandtendernessknewnobounds;buthedidnotpromise。

Despiteherwilltocry,"Verywell,then,ifyoudon’tlovemeenough—goodbye!"shedarednot。Frombirthaccustomedtoherownway,thischeckfromonesoyoung,sotender,sodevoted,baffledandsurprisedher。Shewantedtopushhimawayfromher,totrywhatangerandcoldnesswoulddo,andagainshedarednot。Theknowledgethatshewasschemingtorushhimblindfoldintotheirrevocableweakenedeverything——weakenedthesincerityofpique,andthesincerityofpassion;evenherkisseshadnotthelureshewishedforthem。Thatstormylittlemeetingendedinconclusively。

"Willyousometea,gnadigesFraulein?"

PushingJonfromher,shecriedout:

"No—no,thankyou!I’mjustgoing。"

Andbeforehecouldpreventhershewasgone。

Shewentstealthily,moppinghergushed,stainedcheeks,frightened,angry,verymiserable。ShehadstirredJonupsofearfully,yetnothingdefinitewaspromisedorarranged!Butthemoreuncertainandhazardousthefuture,themore"thewilltohave"workeditstentaclesintothefleshofherheart——likesomeburrowingtick!

NoonewasatGreenStreet。WinifredhadgonewithImogentoseeaplaywhichsomesaidwasallegorical,andothers"veryexciting,don’tyouknow。"ItwasbecauseofwhatotherssaidthatWinifredandImogenhadgone。FleurwentontoPaddington。Throughthecarriagetheairfromthebrick—kilnsofWestDraytonandthelatehayfieldsfannedherstillgushedcheeks。Flowershadseemedtobehadforthepicking;nowtheywereallthornedandprickled。Butthegoldenflowerwithinthecrownofspikesseemedtohertenaciousspiritallthefairerandmoredesirable。

IX

THEFATINTHEFIRE

OnreachinghomeFleurfoundanatmospheresopeculiarthatitpenetratedeventheperplexedauraofherownprivatelife。Hermotherwasinaccessiblyentrenchedinabrownstudy;herfathercontemplatingfateinthevinery。Neitherofthemhadawordtothrowtoadog。’Isitbecauseofme?’thoughtFleur。’OrbecauseofProfond?’Tohermothershesaid:

"What’sthematterwithFather?"

Hermotheransweredwithashrugofhershoulders。

Toherfather:

"What’sthematterwithMother?"

Herfatheranswered:

"Matter?Whatshouldbethematter?"andgaveherasharplook。

"Bytheway,"murmuredFleur,"MonsieurProfondisgoinga’small’

voyageonhisyacht,totheSouthSeas。"

Soamesexaminedabranchonwhichnograpesweregrowing。

"Thisvine’safailure,"hesaid。"I’vehadyoungMonthere。Heaskedmesomethingaboutyou。"

"Oh!Howdoyoulikehim,Father?"

"He——he’saproduct——likealltheseyoungpeople。"

"Whatwereyouathisage,dear?"

Soamessmiledgrimly。

"Wewenttowork,anddidn’tplayabout——flyingandmotoring,andmakinglove。"

"Didn’tyouevermakelove?"

Sheavoidedlookingathimwhileshesaidthat,butshesawhimwellenough。Hispalefacehadreddened,hiseyebrows,wheredarknesswasstillmingledwiththegrey,hadcomeclosetogether。

"Ihadnotimeorinclinationtophilander。"

"Perhapsyouhadagrandpassion。"

Soameslookedatherintently。

"Yes——ifyouwanttoknow——andmuchgooditdidme。"Hemovedaway,alongbythehot—waterpipes。Fleurtiptoedsilentlyafterhim。

"Tellmeaboutit,Father!"

Soamesbecameverystill。

"Whatshouldyouwanttoknowaboutsuchthings,atyourage?"

"Isshealive?"

Henodded。

"Andmarried?"Yes。"

"It’sJonForsyte’smother,isn’tit?Andshewasyourwifefirst。"

Itwassaidinaflashofintuition。Surelyhisoppositioncamefromhisanxietythatsheshouldnotknowofthatoldwoundtohispride。

Butshewasstartled。Toseesomeonesooldandcalmwinceasifstruck,tohearsosharpanoteofpaininhisvoice!

"Whotoldyouthat?Ifyouraunt!Ican’tbeartheaffairtalkedof。"

"But,darling,"saidFleur,softly,"it’ssolongago。"

"Longagoornot,I……"

Fleurstoodstrokinghisarm。

"I’vetriedtoforget,"hesaidsuddenly;"Idon’twishtobereminded。"Andthen,asifventingsomelongandsecretirritation,headded:"Inthesedayspeopledon’tunderstand。Grandpassion,indeed!Nooneknowswhatitis。"

"Ido,"saidFleur,almostinawhisper。

Soames,whohadturnedhisbackonher,spunround。

"Whatareyoutalkingof——achildlikeyou!"

"PerhapsI’veinheritedit,Father。"

"What?"

"Forherson,yousee。"

Hewaspaleasasheet,andsheknewthatshewasasbad。Theystoodstaringateachotherinthesteamyheat,redolentofthemushyscentofearth,ofpottedgeranium,andofvinescomingalongfast。

"Thisiscrazy,"saidSoamesatlast,betweendrylips。

Scarcelymovingherown,shemurmured:

"Don’tbeangry,Father。Ican’thelpit。"

Butshecouldseehewasn’tangry;onlyscared,deeplyscared。

"Ithoughtthatfoolishness,"hestammered,"wasallforgotten。"

"Oh,no!It’stentimeswhatitwas。"

Soameskickedatthehot—waterpipe。Thehaplessmovementtouchedher,whohadnofearofherfather——none。

"Dearest!"shesaid。"Whatmustbe,must,youknow。"

"Must!"repeatedSoames。"Youdon’tknowwhatyou’retalkingof。

Hasthatboybeentold?"

Thebloodrushedintohercheeks。

"Notyet。"

Hehadturnedfromheragain,and,withoneshoulderalittleraised,stoodstaringfixedlyatajointinthepipes。

"It’smostdistastefultome,"hesaidsuddenly;"nothingcouldbemoreso。Sonofthatfellow!It’s——it’s——perverse!"

Shehadnoted,almostunconsciously,thathedidnotsay"sonofthatwoman,"andagainherintuitionbeganworking。

Didtheghostofthatgrandpassionlingerinsomecornerofhisheart?

Sheslippedherhandunderhisarm。

"Jon’sfatherisquiteillandold;Isawhim。"

"You——?"

"Yes,IwenttherewithJon;Isawthemboth。"

"Well,andwhatdidtheysaytoyou?"

"Nothing。Theywereverypolite。"

"Theywouldbe。"Heresumedhiscontemplationofthepipe—joint,andthensaidsuddenly:

"Imustthinkthisover——I’llspeaktoyouagainto—night。"

Sheknewthiswasfinalforthemoment,andstoleaway,leavinghimstilllookingatthepipe—joint。Shewanderedintothefruit—garden,amongtheraspberryandcurrantbushes,withoutimpetustopickandeat。Twomonthsago——shewaslight—hearted!Eventwodaysago——

light—hearted,beforeProsperProfondtoldher。Nowshefelttangledinaweb—ofpassions,vestedrights,oppressionsandrevolts,thetiesofloveandhate。Atthisdarkmomentofdiscouragementthereseemed,eventoherhold—fastnature,nowayout。Howdealwithit——

howswayandbendthingstoherwill,andgetherheart’sdesire?

And,suddenly,roundthecornerofthehighboxhedge,shecameplumponhermother,walkingswiftly,withanopenletterinherhand。Herbosomwasheaving,hereyesdilated,hercheeksflushed。InstantlyFleurthought:’Theyacht!PoorMother!’

Annettegaveherawidestartledlook,andsaid:

"J’ailamigraine。"

"I’mawfullysorry,Mother。"

"Oh,yes!youandyourfather——sorry!"

"But,Mother——Iam。Iknowwhatitfeelslike。"

Annette’sstartledeyesgrewwide,tillthewhitesshowedabovethem。

"Poorinnocent!"shesaid。

Hermother——soself—possessed,andcommonsensical——tolookandspeaklikethis!Itwasallfrightening!Herfather,hermother,herself!

Andonlytwomonthsbacktheyhadseemedtohaveeverythingtheywantedinthisworld。

Annettecrumpledtheletterinherhand。Fleurknewthatshemustignorethesight。

"Can’tIdoanythingforyourhead,Mother?"

Annetteshookthatheadandwalkedon,swayingherhips。

’It’scruel,’thoughtFleur,’andIwasglad!Thatman!Whatdomencomeprowlingfor,disturbingeverything!Isupposehe’stiredofher。Whatbusinesshashetobetiredofmymother?Whatbusiness!’

Andatthatthought,sonaturalandsopeculiar,sheutteredalittlechokedlaugh。

Sheought,ofcourse,tobedelighted,butwhatwastheretobedelightedat?Herfatherdidn’treallycare!Hermotherdid,perhaps?Sheenteredtheorchard,andsatdownunderacherry—tree。

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