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Awakening and To Let
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第7章

Fleurhavingdeclaredthatitwas"simplytoowonderfultostayindoors,"theyallwentout。Moonlightwasfrostingthedew,andanoldsundialthrewalongshadow。Twoboxhedgesatrightangles,darkandsquare,barredofftheorchard。Fleurturnedthroughthatangledopening。

"Comeon!"shecalled。Jonglancedattheothers,andfollowed。Shewasrunningamongthetreeslikeaghost。Allwaslovelyandfoamlikeaboveher,andtherewasascentofoldtrunks,andofnettles。Shevanished。Hethoughthehadlosther,thenalmostranintoherstandingquitestill。

"Isn’titjolly?"shecried,andJonanswered:

"Rather!"

Shereachedup,twistedoffablossomand,twirlingitinherfingers,said:

"IsupposeIcancallyouJon?"

"Ishouldthinksojust。"

"Allright!Butyouknowthere’safeudbetweenourfamilies?"

Jonstammered:"Feud?Why?"

"It’seversoromanticandsilly。That’swhyIpretendedwehadn’tmet。Shallwegetupearlyto—morrowmorningandgoforawalkbeforebreakfastandhaveitout?Ihatebeingslowaboutthings,don’tyou?"

Jonmurmuredarapturousassent。

"Sixo’clock,then。Ithinkyourmother’sbeautiful"

Jonsaidfervently:"Yes,sheis。"

"Iloveallkindsofbeauty,"wentonFleur,"whenit’sexciting。I

don’tlikeGreekthingsabit。"

"What!NotEuripides?"

"Euripides?Oh!no,Ican’tbearGreekplays;they’resolong。I

thinkbeauty’salwaysswift。Iliketolookatonepicture,forinstance,andthenrunoff。Ican’tbearalotofthingstogether。

Look!"Sheheldupherblossominthemoonlight。"That’sbetterthanalltheorchard,Ithink。"

And,suddenly,withherotherhandshecaughtJon’s。

"Ofallthingsintheworld,don’tyouthinkcaution’sthemostawful?Smellthemoonlight!"

Shethrusttheblossomagainsthisface;Jonagreedgiddilythatofallthingsintheworldcautionwastheworst,andbendingover,kissedthehandwhichheldhis。

"That’sniceandold—fashioned,"saidFleurcalmly。"You’refrightfullysilent,Jon。StillIlikesilencewhenit’sswift。"Sheletgohishand。"DidyouthinkIdroppedmyhandkerchiefonpurpose?"

"No!"criedJon,intenselyshocked。

"Well,Idid,ofcourse。Let’sgetback,orthey’llthinkwe’redoingthisonpurposetoo。"Andagainsheranlikeaghostamongthetrees。Jonfollowed,withloveinhisheart,Springinhisheart,andoverallthemoonlitwhiteunearthlyblossom。Theycameoutwheretheyhadgonein,Fleurwalkingdemurely。

"It’squitewonderfulinthere,"shesaiddreamilytoHolly。

Jonpreservedsilence,hopingagainsthopethatshemightbethinkingitswift。

Shebadehimacasualanddemuregood—night,whichmadehimthinkhehadbeendreaming……

InherbedroomFleurhadflungoffhergown,and,wrappedinashapelessgarment,withthewhiteflowerstillinherhair,shelookedlikeamousme,sittingcross—leggedonherbed,writingbycandlelight。

"DEARESTCHERRY,"IbelieveI’minlove。I’vegotitintheneck,onlythefeelingisreallylowerdown。He’sasecondcousin—suchachild,aboutsixmonthsolderandtenyearsyoungerthanIam。Boysalwaysfallinlovewiththeirseniors,andgirlswiththeirjuniorsorwitholdmenofforty。Don’tlaugh,buthiseyesarethetruestthingsIeversaw;andhe’squitedivinelysilent!WehadamostromanticfirstmeetinginLondonundertheVospovitchJuno。Andnowhe’ssleepinginthenextroomandthemoonlight’sontheblossom;andto—morrowmorning,beforeanybody’sawake,we’regoingtowalkoffintoDownfairyland。There’safeudbetweenourfamilies,whichmakesitreallyexciting。Yes!andImayhavetousesubterfugeandcomeonyouforinvitations——ifso,you’llknowwhy!Myfatherdoesn’twantustoknoweachother,butIcan’thelpthat。Life’stooshort。

He’sgotthemostbeautifulmother,withlovelysilveryhairandayoungfacewithdarkeyes。I’mstayingwithhissister——whomarriedmycousin;it’sallmixedup,butImeantopumpherto—morrow。

We’veoftentalkedaboutlovebeingaspoil—sport;well,that’salltosh,it’sthebeginningofsport,andthesooneryoufeelit,mydear,thebetterforyou。

"Jon(notsimplifiedspelling,butshortforJolyon,whichisanameinmyfamily,theysay)isthesortthatlightsupandgoesout;

aboutfivefeetten,stillgrowing,andIbelievehe’sgoingtobeapoet。IfyoulaughatmeI’vedonewithyouforever。Iperceiveallsortsofdifficulties,butyouknowwhenIreallywantathingIgetit。Oneofthechiefeffectsofloveisthatyouseetheairsortofinhabited,likeseeingafaceinthemoon;andyoufeel——youfeeldanceyandsoftatthesametime,withafunnysensation——likeacontinualfirstsniffoforange——blossom——Justaboveyourstays。

Thisismyfirst,andIfeelasifitweregoingtobemylast,whichisabsurd,ofcourse,byallthelawsofNatureandmorality。IfyoumockmeIwillsmiteyou,andifyoutellanybodyIwillneverforgiveyou。Somuchso,thatIalmostdon’tthinkI’llsendthisletter。Anyway,I’llsleepoverit。Sogood—night,myCherry——oh!

"Your,"FLEUR。"

VIII

IDYLLONGRASS

WhenthosetwoyoungForsytesemergedfromthechinelane,andsettheirfaceseasttowardthesun,therewasnotacloudinheaven,andtheDownsweredewy。Theyhadcomeatagoodbatuptheslopeandwerealittleoutofbreath;iftheyhadanythingtosaytheydidnotsayit,butmarchedintheearlyawkwardnessofunbreakfastedmorningunderthesongsofthelarks。Thestealingouthadbeenfun,butwiththefreedomofthetopsthesenseofconspiracyceased,andgaveplacetodumbness。

"We’vemadeonebloomingerror,"saidFleur,whentheyhadgonehalfamile。"I’mhungry。"

Jonproducedastickofchocolate。Theyshareditandtheirtongueswereloosened。Theydiscussedthenatureoftheirhomesandpreviousexistences,whichhadakindoffascinatingunrealityuponthatlonelyheight。ThereremainedbutonethingsolidinJon’spast——hismother;butonethingsolidinFleur’s——herfather;andofthesefigures,asthoughseeninthedistancewithdisapprovingfaces,theyspokelittle。

TheDowndippedandroseagaintowardChanctonburyRing;asparkleoffarseacameintoview,asparrow—hawkhoveredinthesun’seyesothattheblood—nourishedbrownofhiswingsgleamednearlyred。Jonhadapassionforbirds,andanaptitudeforsittingverystilltowatchthem;keen—sighted,andwithamemoryforwhatinterestedhim,onbirdshewasalmostworthlisteningto。ButinChanctonburyRingtherewerenone——itsgreatbeechtemplewasemptyoflife,andalmostchillyatthisearlyhour;theycameoutwillinglyagainintothesunonthefarside。ItwasFleur’sturnnow。Shespokeofdogs,andthewaypeopletreatedthem。Itwaswickedtokeepthemonchains!

Shewouldliketoflogpeoplewhodidthat。Jonwasastonishedtofindhersohumanitarian。Sheknewadog,itseemed,whichsomefarmernearherhomekeptchainedupattheendofhischickenrun,inallweathers,tillithadalmostlostitsvoicefrombarking!

"Andthemiseryis,"shesaidvehemently,"thatifthepoorthingdidn’tbarkateveryonewhopassesitwouldn’tbekeptthere。Idothinkmenarecunningbrutes。I’veletitgotwice,onthesly;it’snearlybittenmebothtimes,andthenitgoessimplymadwithjoy;

butitalwaysrunsbackhomeatlast,andtheychainitupagain。IfIhadmyway,I’dchainthatmanup。"Jonsawherteethandhereyesgleam。"I’dbrandhimonhisforeheadwiththeword’Brute’;thatwouldteachhim!"

Jonagreedthatitwouldbeagoodremedy。

"It’stheirsenseofproperty,"hesaid,"whichmakespeoplechainthings。Thelastgenerationthoughtofnothingbutproperty;andthat’swhytherewastheWar。"

"Oh!"saidFleur,"Ineverthoughtofthat。Yourpeopleandminequarrelledaboutproperty。Andanywaywe’veallgotit——atleast,I

supposeyourpeoplehave。"

"Oh!yes,luckily;Idon’tsupposeIshallbeanygoodatmakingmoney。"

"Ifyouwere,Idon’tbelieveIshouldlikeyou。

Jonslippedhishandtremulouslyunderherarm。Fleurlookedstraightbeforeherandchanted:

"Jon,Jon,thefarmer’sson,Stoleapig,andawayherun!"

Jon’sarmcreptroundherwaist。

"Thisisrathersudden,"saidFleurcalmly;"doyouoftendoit?"

Jondroppedhisarm。Butwhenshelaughedhisarmstolebackagain;

andFleurbegantosing:

"Owhowilloerthedownssofree,Owhowillwithmeride?

Owhowillupandfollowme———"

Sing,Jon!"

Jonsang。Thelarksjoinedin,sheep—bells,andanearlymorningchurchfarawayoverinSteyning。Theywentonfromtunetotune,tillFleursaid:

"MyGod!Iamhungrynow!"

"Oh!Iamsorry!"

Shelookedroundintohisface。

"Jon,you’reratheradarling。"

Andshepressedhishandagainstherwaist。Jonalmostreeledfromhappiness。Ayellow—and—whitedogcoursingaharestartledthemapart。Theywatchedthetwovanishdowntheslope,tillFleursaidwithasigh:"He’llnevercatchit,thankgoodness!What’sthetime?

Mine’sstopped。Ineverwoundit。"

Jonlookedathiswatch。"ByJove!"hesaid,"mine’sstopped;too。"

Theywalkedonagain,butonlyhandinhand。

"Ifthegrassisdry,"saidFleur,"let’ssitdownforhalfaminute。"

Jontookoffhiscoat,andtheysharedit。

"Smell!Actuallywildthyme!"

Withhisarmroundherwaistagain,theysatsomeminutesinsilence。

"Wearegoats!"criedFleur,jumpingup;"weshallbemostfearfullylate,andlooksosilly,andputthemontheirguard。Lookhere,JonWeonlycameouttogetanappetiteforbreakfast,andlostourway。

See?"

"Yes,"saidJon。

"It’sserious;there’llbeastopperputonus。Areyouagoodliar?"

"Ibelievenotvery;butIcantry。"

Fleurfrowned。

"Youknow,"shesaid,"Irealizethattheydon’tmeanustobefriends。"

"Whynot?"

"Itoldyouwhy。"

"Butthat’ssilly。"

"Yes;butyoudon’tknowmyfather!"

"Isupposehe’sfearfullyfondofyou。"

"Yousee,I’manonlychild。Andsoareyou——ofyourmother。Isn’titabore?There’ssomuchexpectedofone。Bythetimethey’vedoneexpecting,one’sasgoodasdead。"

"Yes,"mutteredJon,"life’sbeastlyshort。Onewantstoliveforever,andknoweverything。"

"Andloveeverybody?"

"No,"criedJon;"Ionlywanttoloveonce——you。"

"Indeed!You’recomingon!Oh!Look!There’sthechalk—pit;wecan’tbeveryfarnow。Let’srun。"

Jonfollowed,wonderingfearfullyifhehadoffendedher。

Thechalk—pitwasfullofsunshineandthemurmurationofbees。

Fleurflungbackherhair。

"Well,"shesaid,"incaseofaccidents,youmaygivemeonekiss,Jon,"andshepushedhercheekforward。Withecstasyhekissedthathotsoftcheek。

"Now,remember!Welostourway;andleaveittomeasmuchasyoucan。I’mgoingtoberatherbeastlytoyou;it’ssafer;tryandbebeastlytome!"

Jonshookhishead。"That’simpossible。"

"Justtopleaseme;tillfiveo’clock,atallevents。"

"Anybodywillbeabletoseethroughit,"saidJongloomily。

"Well,doyourbest。Look!Theretheyare!Waveyourhat!Oh!youhaven’tgotone。Well,I’llcooee!Getalittleawayfromme,andlooksulky。"

Fiveminuteslater,enteringthehouseanddoinghisutmosttolooksulky,Jonheardherclearvoiceinthedining—room:

"Oh!I’msimplyravenous!He’sgoingtobeafarmer——andheloseshisway!Theboy’sanidiot!"

IX

GOYA

LunchwasoverandSoamesmountedtothepicture—galleryinhishousenearMapleduram。HehadwhatAnnettecalled"agrief。"Fleurwasnotyethome。ShehadbeenexpectedonWednesday;hadwiredthatitwouldbeFriday;andagainonFridaythatitwouldbeSundayafternoon;andherewereheraunt,andhercousinstheCardigans,andthisfellowProfond,andeverythingflatasapancakeforthewantofher。HestoodbeforehisGauguin——sorestpointofhiscollection。

HehadboughttheuglygreatthingwithtwoearlyMatissesbeforetheWar,becausetherewassuchafussaboutthosePost—Impressionistchaps。HewaswonderingwhetherProfondwouldtakethemoffhishands——thefellowseemednottoknowwhattodowithhismoney——whenheheardhissister’svoicesay:"Ithinkthat’sahorridthing,Soames,"andsawthatWinifredhadfollowedhimup。

"Oh!youdo?"hesaiddryly;"Igavefivehundredforit。"

"Fancy!Womenaren’tmadelikethateveniftheyareblack。"

Soamesutteredaglumlaugh。"Youdidn’tcomeuptotellmethat。"

"No。DoyouknowthatJolyon’sboyisstayingwithValandhiswife?"

Soamesspunround。

"What?"

"Yes,"drawledWinifred;"he’sgonetolivewiththemtherewhilehelearnsfarming。"

Soameshadturnedaway,buthervoicepursuedhimashewalkedupanddown。"IwarnedValthatneitherofthemwastobespokentoaboutoldmatters。"

"Whydidn’tyoutellmebefore?"

Winifredshruggedhersubstantialshoulders。

"Fleurdoeswhatshelikes。You’vealwaysspoiledher。Besides,mydearboy,what’stheharm?"

"Theharm!"mutteredSoames。"Why,she——"hecheckedhimself。TheJuno,thehandkerchief,Fleur’seyes,herquestions,andnowthisdelayinherreturn——thesymptomsseemedtohimsosinisterthat,faithfultohisnature,hecouldnotpartwiththem。

"Ithinkyoutaketoomuchcare,"saidWinifred。"IfIwereyou,I

shouldtellherofthatoldmatter。It’snogoodthinkingthatgirlsinthesedaysareastheyusedtobe。WheretheypickuptheirknowledgeIcan’ttell,buttheyseemtoknoweverything。"

OverSoames’face,closelycomposed,passedasortofspasm,andWinifredaddedhastily:

"Ifyoudon’tliketospeakofit,Icouldforyou。"

Soamesshookhishead。Unlesstherewasabsolutenecessitythethoughtthathisadoreddaughtershouldlearnofthatoldscandalhurthispridetoomuch。

"No,"hesaid,"notyet。NeverifIcanhelpit。

"Nonsense,mydear。Thinkwhatpeopleare!"

"Twentyyearsisalongtime,"mutteredSoames。"Outsideourfamily,who’slikelytoremember?"

Winifredwassilenced。SheinclinedmoreandmoretothatpeaceandquietnessofwhichMontagueDartiehaddeprivedherinheryouth。

And,sincepicturesalwaysdepressedher,shesoonwentdownagain。

Soamespassedintothecornerwhere,sidebyside,hunghisrealGoyaandthecopyofthefresco"LaVendimia。"HisacquisitionoftherealGoyaratherbeautifullyillustratedthecobwebofvestedinterestsandpassionswhichmeshthebright—wingedflyofhumanlife。TherealGoya’snobleowner’sancestorhadcomeintopossessionofitduringsomeSpanishwar——itwasinawordloot。ThenobleownerhadremainedinignoranceofitsvalueuntilintheninetiesanenterprisingcriticdiscoveredthataSpanishpainternamedGoyawasagenius。ItwasonlyafairGoya,butalmostuniqueinEngland,andthenobleownerbecameamarkedman。Havingmanypossessionsandthataristocraticculturewhich,independentofmeresensuousenjoyment,isfoundedonthesounderprinciplethatonemustknoweverythingandbefearfullyinterestedinlife,hehadfullyintendedtokeepanarticlewhichcontributedtohisreputationwhilehewasalive,andtoleaveittothenationafterhewasdead。

FortunatelyforSoames,theHouseofLordswasviolentlyattackedin1909,andthenobleownerbecamealarmedandangry。’If,’hesaidtohimself,’theythinktheycanhaveitbothwaystheyareverymuchmistaken。Solongastheyleavemeinquietenjoymentthenationcanhavesomeofmypicturesatmydeath。Butifthenationisgoingtobaitme,androbmelikethis,I’mdamnedifIwon’tsellthelot。

Theycan’thavemyprivatepropertyandmypublicspirit—both。’Hebroodedinthisfashionforseveralmonthstillonemorning,afterreadingthespeechofacertainstatesman,hetelegraphedtohisagenttocomedownandbringBodkin。OngoingoverthecollectionBodkin,thanwhoseopiniononmarketvaluesnonewasmoresought,pronouncedthatwithafreehandtoselltoAmerica,Germany,andotherplaceswheretherewasaninterestinart,alotmoremoneycouldbemadethanbysellinginEngland。Thenobleowner’spublicspirit——hesaid——waswellknownbutthepictureswereunique。Thenobleownerputthisopinioninhispipeandsmokeditforayear。

Attheendofthattimehereadanotherspeechbythesamestatesman,andtelegraphedtohisagents:"GiveBodkinafreehand。"ItwasatthisjuncturethatBodkinconceivedtheideawhichsalvedtheGoyaandtwootheruniquepicturesforthenativecountryofthenobleowner。WithonehandBodkinprofferedthepicturestotheforeignmarket,withtheotherheformedalistofprivateBritishcollectors。Havingobtainedwhatheconsideredthehighestpossiblebidsfromacrosstheseas,hesubmittedpicturesandbidstotheprivateBritishcollectors,andinvitedthem,oftheirpublicspirit,tooutbid。Inthreeinstances(includingtheGoya)outoftwenty—onehewassuccessful。Andwhy?Oneoftheprivatecollectorsmadebuttons——hehadmadesomanythathedesiredthathiswifeshouldbecalledLady"Buttons。"Hethereforeboughtauniquepictureatgreatcost,andgaveittothenation。Itwas"part,"hisfriendssaid,"ofhisgeneralgame。"ThesecondoftheprivatecollectorswasanAmericophobe,andboughtanuniquepictureto"spitethedamnedYanks。"ThethirdoftheprivatecollectorswasSoames,who——moresoberthaneitherofthe,others——boughtafteravisittoMadrid,becausehewascertainthatGoyawasstillontheupgrade。Goyawasnotboomingatthemoment,buthewouldcomeagain;and,lookingatthatportrait,Hogarthian,Manetesqueinitsdirectness,butwithitsownqueersharpbeautyofpaint,hewasperfectlysatisfiedstillthathehadmadenoerror,heavythoughthepricehadbeen——heaviesthehadeverpaid。Andnexttoitwashangingthecopyof"LaVendimia。"Thereshewas——thelittlewretch—lookingbackathiminherdreamymood,themoodhelovedbestbecausehefeltsomuchsaferwhenshelookedlikethat。

Hewasstillgazingwhenthescentofacigarimpingedonhisnostrils,andavoicesaid:

"Well,Mr。Forsyde,whatyougoin’todowiththissmalllot?"

ThatBelgianchap,whosemother—asifFlemishbloodwerenotenough——

hadbeenArmenian!Subduinganaturalirritation,hesaid:

"Areyouajudgeofpictures?"

"Well,I’vegotafewmyself。"

"AnyPost—Impressionists?"

"Ye—es,Iratherlikethem。"

"Whatdoyouthinkofthis?"saidSoames,pointingtotheGauguin。

MonsieurProfondprotrudedhislowerlipandshortpointedbeard。

"Ratherfine,Ithink,"hesaid;"doyouwanttosellit?"

Soamescheckedhisinstinctive"Notparticularly"——hewouldnotchafferwiththisalien。

"Yes,"hesaid。

"Whatdoyouwantforit?"

"WhatIgave。"

"Allright,"saidMonsieurProfond。"I’llbegladtotakethatsmallpicture。Post—Impressionists——they’reawfuldead,butthey’reamusin’。Idon’careforpicturesmuch,butI’vegotsome,justasmalllot。"

"Whatdoyoucarefor?"

MonsieurProfondshruggedhisshoulders。

"Life’sawfullikealotofmonkeysscramblin’foremptynuts。"

"You’reyoung,"saidSoames。Ifthefellowmustmakeageneralization,heneedn’tsuggestthattheformsofpropertylackedsolidity!

"Idon’worry,"repliedMonsieurProfondsmiling;"we’reborn,andwedie。Halftheworld’sstarvin’。Ifeedasmalllotofbabiesoutinmymother’scountry;butwhat’stheuse?Mightaswellthrowmymoneyintheriver。"

Soameslookedathim,andturnedbacktowardhisGoya。Hedidn’tknowwhatthefellowwanted。

"WhatshallImakemychequefor?"pursuedMonsieurProfond。

"Fivehundred,"saidSoamesshortly;"butIdon’twantyoutotakeitifyoudon’tcareforitmorethanthat。"

"That’sallright,"saidMonsieurProfond;"I’llbe’appyto’avethatpicture。"

Hewroteachequewithafountain—penheavilychasedwithgold。

Soameswatchedtheprocessuneasily。Howonearthhadthefellowknownthathewantedtosellthatpicture?MonsieurProfondheldoutthecheque。

"TheEnglishareawfulfunnyaboutpictures,"hesaid。"SoaretheFrench,soaremypeople。They’reallawfulfunny。"

"Idon’tunderstandyou,"saidSoamesstiffly。

"It’slikehats,"saidMonsieurProfondenigmatically,"smallorlarge,turnin’upordown—justthefashion。Awfulfunny。"And,smiling,hedriftedoutofthegalleryagain,blueandsolidlikethesmokeofhisexcellentcigar。

Soameshadtakenthecheque,feelingasiftheintrinsicvalueofownershiphadbeencalledinquestion。’He’sacosmopolitan,’hethought,watchingProfondemergefromundertheverandahwithAnnette,andsaunterdownthelawntowardtheriver。Whathiswifesawinthefellowhedidn’tknow,unlessitwasthathecouldspeakherlanguage;andtherepassedinSoameswhatMonsieurProfondwouldhavecalleda"smalldoubt"whetherAnnettewasnottoohandsometobewalkingwithanyoneso"cosmopolitan。"EvenatthatdistancehecouldseethebluefumesfromProfond’scigarwreathoutinthequietsunlight;andhisgreybuckskinshoes,andhisgreyhat——thefellowwasadandy!Andhecouldseethequickturnofhiswife’shead,soverystraightonherdesirableneckandshoulders。Thatturnofherneckalwaysseemedtohimalittletooshowy,andinthe"QueenofallIsurvey"manner——notquitedistinguished。Hewatchedthemwalkalongthepathatthebottomofthegarden。Ayoungmaninflannelsjoinedthemdownthere——aSundaycallernodoubt,fromuptheriver。

HewentbacktohisGoya。HewasstillstaringatthatreplicaofFleur,andworryingoverWinifred’snews,whenhiswife’svoicesaid:

"Mr。MichaelMont,Soames。Youinvitedhimtoseeyourpictures。"

TherewasthecheerfulyoungmanoftheGalleryoffCorkStreet!

"Turnedup,yousee,sir;IliveonlyfourmilesfromPangbourne。

Jollyday,isn’tit?"

Confrontedwiththeresultsofhisexpansiveness,Soamesscrutinizedhisvisitor。Theyoungman’smouthwasexcessivelylargeandcurly——

heseemedalwaysgrinning。Whydidn’thegrowtherestofthoseidioticlittlemoustaches,whichmadehimlooklikeamusic—hallbuffoon?Whatonearthwereyoungmenabout,deliberatelyloweringtheirclasswiththesetooth—brushes,orlittleslugwhiskers?Ugh!

Affectedyoungidiots!Inotherrespectshewaspresentable,andhisflannelsveryclean。

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